Afraid
Deep down
Is an eternal fight
Inside I’m fighting
For my life
I feel
In constant danger
Though I’m the one
With all the anger
Upon myself
I inflict the pain
To make the sound
And world go away
Physically I’m here
But I’m really not there
Stuck in fantasies
‘Cause reality is to hard to bear
I’m lost in thoughts
Lost in my head
All my dreams
Are gone and dead
I want people
And the world to go away
To be alone
And get rid of my pain
You could never understand
All the stuff I’ve been through
All the blood that’s dripped like a tear drop in the rain
That would burn right through you
I’ve been touched in private places
With unknown hurtful hands
Tried to cry, plead, and tell a mother
Who never understands
I deny
But I am ashamed
I’m lost and hurt
I feel sad and betrayed
I keep lying to myself
I’m confident, I’m tough
It doesn’t affect me
I’ll never give up
But if only someone
Would see the hole inside
If someone could fill it
And give me some pride
Because I’ve been
Abandon, neglected, and abused
I’m at war with myself
But afraid I will lose
Copyright © Stacy Day | Year Posted 2011
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