Addictions In This Realm of What Is

Feeling alone….overwhelmed….and conquered….trying to remain in a dispositional state of mind by contemplating ways of making what appears to be impossible, possible….in this realm of what is. Struggling with the mind, and attempting to substitute the patterns of enticing and gripping destruction with approaches to overcome, endeavoring to convince the brain to alter habits that defy logic, by making the intangibles, tangible….in this realm of what is. A crack, and then a light escaping from consciousness, and a glimpse of presence of mind altering joy and blissful reality, but once again elusive, dissonant, and inconsistent….in this realm of what is. And now feeling ill-fated and defeated, but forever seeking to overcome the addictive entrapment, in order to find peace….in this realm of what is. One moment a feeling that you have conquered….the next….falling into a state of despair with a belief that overcoming will never be possible….in this realm of what is.