Addiction

Dear ......, Its over, it's finished, I mean it - we're through! I thought it was me but now know it was you. I'm done with your lies, your greed, my fixation insatiable urge that precedes degradation. It's cost me too much this affair of ours; this obsession consumed me for years, days and hours. Without you I'm free to flourish and thrive, my sparkle returns, with my passion and drive. The skin of shame peels slowly and soon I'll be free of your poison and flee my cocoon. Your shadow remains and lurks all around, One chink in my armour and soon you'll surround. You'll smother me at my lowest ebb and lure me back to your toxic web. But once for you is never enough I know that now, the truth is tough.. Ill never again succumb in your midst to false claims of confidence, courage and grit. Without you I'm changing, my fashion bespoke One day you'll crawl past my invisible cloak. My skin glows, my waist shrinks, my hair is now glossy. My tissues are mending, my sick genes less bossy! I hear peace without your seductive whisper My heart thaws and ventures into the vista I can search my soul and not feel empty: the void replaced, my hope is plenty! I'm starting to use the gifts that you hid, The girl in the mirror is lifting her lid. Peering into the world, clear eyes bright and blue I touch, taste and smell, inhaling the view. Less fear of your fog clouding my vision. I love what I see, painting colours my mission... When you rap on my brain, trying to grab my attention I delve into my toolbox of mental distractions. You'll lure me and stalk like the fool that you are just to tempt me, just one, its only a jar... My shield will deflect you with super-girl force! My willpower steely, your shadow a ghost. Your influence dwindles the stronger I grow' your blood sucking shackles bleed into the snow. Like the “matchstick girl” I've seen the light. Your shadow shrivels GIVE UP this fight! You're losing, you're fading your voice is diminished. Superfluous now, I don't need you - it's finished! I'm saying so long, it was fun while it lasted. Move on, to more fish you'll be flabbergasted.. There are many lost souls in this world to seduce Not me though, not I, I'm cutting loose. Its time to say goodbye cruel friend I'm out, this really is the end! Samantha Malone, December 2020.