Addicted

There're these things that make me a Part-time Christian, Things that i don't want to do but I also want to do, Things i want to stop but I also don't want to stop, Things that don't make me happy but also make me happy, Things I want to talk about but I also don't want to talk about, Things i want to be free from but I also don't want to be free from, Things that don't define me yet still do, Things I want to pray about but I also don't want to pray about, After all, if I'm a Christian as I claim to be, Then why won't these demons let me be? If there's a Man in the clouds, as I believe there is, Why don't these solemn words get to where He is?