Aching Bruise

Everyone is getting ready
 For the Holidays already.
Shopping, rushing around,
 Yet in sorrow I do drown.

Their photos I came across
 I feel pain, agony, the loss
For my life is an empty shell
 It is my own special hell.

My babies are gone
 And I am withdrawn.
Aching and in torment
 Into this Hell I descent.

Crying, weeping, and numb
 I wait for darkness to succumb.
I want to rant, rave, and wail
 But alas it is to no avail.

I know this is my due
 Yet some say it is untrue.
Either way, the pain is more
 Than even I can ignore.
 
I can't catch my breath
 Though I wish for death
I am still unfortunately here
 Drowning in my endless tears.

You say I need to move on
 That they are long gone
That this is what I deserve.
 I say you have some nerve.

Who can so move ahead
 With part of their soul dead?
Who can get off their knees
 When they are filled with agony?

Just when I think I am ok
 Something makes me sway
And to my knees I fall
 And in torment I do crawl.

Will I ever be the same?
 No and only myself to blame.
No more flickering flame
 This I do proclaim.

There is this abyss
 This hole that exists
This aching bruise
 And sorrow does ooze.

My heart is broken
 It is no mere token.
It cannot be healed
 So forever it is sealed.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2009

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De La Keur Avatar
November 28, 2009 at 12:24 PM
I know baby i know, we ALL feel it honey. Trust me. I don't know what to do or say...My heart and soul go out to you babe, Love and kisses Wicked and Demented
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November 27, 2009 at 7:19 PM
Kristy, what a sad heartfelt piece - if this is based on fact. This poem has to be shown to the powers that be, as it shows a mom with love, feelings and much hurt >> James
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