Accepting An End
Just when I thought I had it all sorted out
You came around and now I'm full of doubt
I didn’t think to see you again
Would have the same affect it had back then
But once again I was wrong
How could I have known after all it's been so long
Never knew these feelings I held inside
It almost felt like the first time
I tried to convince myself I no longer cared
But the love you and I once shared
Was stronger than anything I'd ever felt before
And I guess my heart is still a little sore
So seeing you with someone new
Though I thought it was something I could do
Turned out to be a little harder than I thought it would be
Then again once upon a time you meant everything to me
You would think I wouldn’t be so surprised
But I guess after trying to feed myself all those lies
I was beginning to believe they just might be true
But standing face to face with you
Wasn't what I pictured in my mind
It's got me in a bit of a bind
Wishing I could just erase you from my past
And all the memories that didn't last
Maybe then I could just let it all go
After all you're no longer someone I know
Even after everything we went thru
The man I now see in you
That man is nothing more than a stranger to me
And I wish I could pretend and let it all be
But something somewhere deep inside
A part of me won't buy into those lies
A part of me remembers the man you used to be
The man who was once in love with me
That man has long since disappeared
And seeing you now is just a little weird
It may not seem like a big deal to you
And though I know you don't think this way too
There are some things I may never understand
Perhaps I'm living in my own little dreamland
But I just can't pretend you never meant anything to me
Even if we were never meant to be
You and I have history
Anyone can see, it's no mystery
I know that may not mean much of anything to you
And I'm okay with that too
I just haven't found my own way
But maybe one day
I'll be able to do what you do
And pretend I was never in love with you!
Copyright © Jennifer Griffith | Year Posted 2016
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