Accepted

I want to be a part of this, and also accepted, everybody says I’m smart, there is so much in my head, my brain is light as air, while my heart is heavy led, and the world is full of color, but I’m only seeing red. I just want you all to know, I never wanted to be dead, everybody eats their own, and I’ve already been fed, I am no such thing as crazy, I can live without a med, I was running in a race, and I finished with one ped. I am sitting at a feast, but its only filled with bread, please just let me calm me down, no I do try not to tred, I feel bad for everything, I take back what I just said, I pretend that life is fine, but I fall apart instead. People tell me stand and fight, but I have already fled, I belong in an asylum, now I am strapped to the bed, two years I’m still alone, all the tears that I do shed, and my mind is filled with wonder, while my heart is full of dread.