Abomination

12/2/2020 Seeds starting to germinate The scent always permeates The effect begins to percolate Having an impact on the murder rate As life begins or terminates Thought I heard a hiss But was too caught up in bliss After a poisonous kiss Everything going amiss Because I was too caught up in getting my fix She was able to nix Falling and sinking amidst the fish Can't resist, is this it? Not while I exist Had to find a grip The tables turned and flipped Took a lot of risks In order to get out of the abyss Couldn't keep falling for the same old tricks Do what I want with this heart of mine Don't care if it's dark outside Experienced comfort and the hardest times I'd be darned to lie That sober s*** Been struggling to get over it Often a Doberman And other times a Nobleman Here's an honest statement At times I overcompensated Made things far too complicated And always got intoxicated Making myself an abomination When I concentrated I often dominated Always felt obligated And that this world was far too populated I just thank God I made it Nothing else needed to be contemplated