A Very Merry Black Sheep Family Christmas

I hear the murmurring 
I know they are talking about me
I see the intentional whispers
The subtle avoidance at my presence
Like an outcast leper they walk around
The blatant use of conversation enders
Like " oh theres so and so, i gotta go"
I arrive alone and leave alone.
God only knows why i was even invited
God only knows why i showed up
They dont know me
They never did
But they talk behind my back 
Like they know everything about me.
Dinner ends and i excuse myself
And quietly exit the party.
No , " hey where you going, dont go,"
Heads turn as if they dont even notice
I arrive home and pour a strong drink
I close my eyes and let the peace in
Because thats what its about for me.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2013

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Horsman Avatar
December 28, 2013 at 10:42 AM
As the black sheep of my family yes i also been there done that,,awesome poetry Carl
A   Avatar
December 27, 2013 at 2:47 PM
Carl, i never got the soup mail... xox
Fraser Avatar
December 27, 2013 at 3:13 PM
its this stupid tablet i have, it says the message is sent but you say its not there, it happens on facebook to me all the time. plus this site said you were not online yet i got mail from you, crazy
Fraser Avatar
December 27, 2013 at 3:13 PM
its this stupid tablet i have, it says the message is sent but you say its not there, it happens on facebook to me all the time. plus this site said you were not online yet i got mail from you, crazy
Fraser Avatar
December 27, 2013 at 3:13 PM
i rest my case
Bell Avatar
December 27, 2013 at 2:15 AM
I find the company of my family hard at times. Belly
A   Avatar
December 27, 2013 at 1:15 AM
Carl, I like how you end this piece with your inner peace.. You took it to a place, where I would be more comfortable in a silent moment, than feeling out of place... A very polite man you are... Sending hugs.. LINDA
Fraser Avatar
December 27, 2013 at 2:55 AM
Yes im no longer go to family stuff, its pointless . I used to try and go out of my way to please them ,now i could care less if they like me or not, i like me and most others who really know me like me to. And its more peaceful to stay away, Carl
A   Avatar
December 27, 2013 at 1:12 AM
Hi Carl, stopping by to say hi before I log off tonight. I do hope you stop by and read my newest fun right.. it's all about the sun... :-)... Linda
Fraser Avatar
December 27, 2013 at 2:50 AM
Hi, read your sun dance, glad to see you back in the groove, blessings dear friend, Carl
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