A Very Merry Black Sheep Family Christmas

I hear the murmurring I know they are talking about me I see the intentional whispers The subtle avoidance at my presence Like an outcast leper they walk around The blatant use of conversation enders Like " oh theres so and so, i gotta go" I arrive alone and leave alone. God only knows why i was even invited God only knows why i showed up They dont know me They never did But they talk behind my back Like they know everything about me. Dinner ends and i excuse myself And quietly exit the party. No , " hey where you going, dont go," Heads turn as if they dont even notice I arrive home and pour a strong drink I close my eyes and let the peace in Because thats what its about for me.