A Tough Guy's Recompense

Stoic, is my demeanor
Masculine through and through
I’m as tough as the tough guys come
More manly than all of you

Emotions are for sissies
My tears had never flown
Catastrophes, I greeted with smiles
Heartbreak I’d never shown

She was all of five years old
The sweetest child I’d ever seen
To be told that she is dying of cancer
Was a diagnosis too obscene

Forty years of pent up feelings
I had learned to keep inside
Putting up a manly façade
Not even knowing what I did hide

And then the door flew open
As wide as wide could be
The dam holding back my humanity
Broke down inside of me

I shaved my head to be like her
I held her little hand
I would cry and laugh and giggle with her
Every moment that I can

Being a man doesn’t mean pretending
That your heart cannot be touched
It means being there to share your love
Helping others when life gets rough

It took a five year old, little girl
To really show me how to be a man
The courage she had to fight her fight
Proved her to be tougher than I am

I no longer hold back tears
I say, “I love you” all the time
Showing the world exactly what I feel
I no longer view as a hideous crime

I wept at her funeral
And, I’ve cried every night since
That door remains wide open
A tough guy’s recompense
Copyright © | Year Posted 2011


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Date: 10/8/2011 12:10:00 AM
beautiful....
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Date: 10/7/2011 7:24:00 AM
Congratulations on your win with this heartfelt write Joe. Love, Carol
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Date: 10/6/2011 12:20:00 AM
Your emotion came through loud and clear. You made me feel it too. Congratulations Joe
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Date: 10/5/2011 11:48:00 PM
Joe is this the most beautiful poem and so moving. Grieving changes us forever. I congratulate you on your first place win however, this poem is so much more. My thoughts are with you, take care Lee
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Date: 10/5/2011 6:49:00 PM
As Chris has said, there is such a power to this poem, that one cannot say enough. Well done!
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Date: 9/27/2011 2:35:00 PM
a riveting write, joe... unforgettable! :) huggs, nette
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