A Smile That Is Fake.

Focus -- what do you want? Even you do not know the answer. I am so confused. I do not know who you are. We had made so much progress, but then you slammed the door. I miss who you were, I hate who you have become. I await the day, that you realize what you have done. I hope it not be too late, For i love you no matter what. Wish I knew you felt the same, But I'll tell you what... When the day comes, the day you realize just what you have done, regret alone just won't be enough. Do not realize what you do to me, Your actions affect me more than I show, But you are too blind to see.. Just how much you are killing me. I will cry myself to sleep tonight, But this pain I feel can't make it alright. I fake a smile, but all the while I am slowly.. Dying inside. You can not see it, You will never even know, But I will tell you what... When the day comes, the day you realize what you have done, Regret alone will just not be enough. You think your mistakes are okay. It will all blow over when you are done. You think forgiveness is in everyone's heart. And here is where you have won. But pain can only last so long. Then it turns to something wrong. Hate is a natural feeling, but not when it is from me to you. I will not say i hate you, or even that i will someday; But I'll tell you what.. When the day comes, the day you realize what you have done, Regret will not be enough. I can not say when the time comes, That i will forgive you for the pain i have been through. And for that, all I can say, is that you have not won.