A Mother Always

My heart aches everyday, The memories n my head are on replay, I go through pictures of all of you, It has been a rough year we have been through, With every minute of everyday, I tell myself I am okay, I know it's a lie, I am nowhere near fine, Being your all's mom is all I know in life, So why do I lie and say I'm alright, When deep down I'm shattered and broken, So much so, tears can't be shed and words are unspoken, I lay in my bed, Dreams of having my kids with me play in my head, I know I will have you all home in the end, Only then will I start to heal and mend, I pray everyday begging God please, Help me get everything together so my kids can come home to me, I promise to never stray again, Please I need this pain and emptiness to end, I lay in my bed alone, Waiting for the day my kids come home, I pray it won't be long, With me is where they belong.