A Light Nightmare

A Light Nightmare My soul lays dormant in the chamber of a revolver Silent, still, ready to explode into the oblivion of violent death Fear keeps the shiny metallic surface of my being a compact shell The last traces of love have vanished with the light of a dimming reality My dead eyes move and perceive but refuse to see My hands shake with the tremble of fear playing a dull melody BANG! The light floods into the void, the universe is born Sweat, tears, longing, anger, sadness, hate, repentance, forgiveness, love Ego dissolves, life force flows through the ether I hear radar waves pulsing hitting my sailing soul Again and again without end and without change My eyes begin to open and peek through the crusty curtain of sleep I reach over impulsively and turn the alarm off on my phone My hands no longer shake and the illusion of the revolver has left The light pours in like a cold bucket of water Did I escape the metal encasing of my soul? Is this the light I saw after the BANG! Am I in heaven? Or hell? Or simply being with the image of nothingness haunting my dreams