A Letter To My Late Grandma

Many years ago before I became a man When i was just a boy having his fun I had a grandmother whom i thought would never die She would sit outside her house as I played by She was tall and jolly and I was fond of her She died one day and now she is beyond the moon and far Things I never told her as a boy, I would like to tell her now I know am crazy, but I hope she is listening somehow Thanks grandma for all those warm and tasty meals Had your house been a restaurant, I still wouldn’t afford the bills Taking care of me while my mother was away I would give anything just to be with you one more day Curling by your fireplace, listening to stories and uploading memories Those were my happiest days, where I knew little or no worries Helping you gather the chicken, rewarding me with a cup of porridge I feel tears in my eyes now, as I turn back the page to that age After you were gone I grew up fast, not sure where time went The days ahead would be the opposite of the time you and i spent I have been on the highway to nowhere, not sure how to get there My will to go on is worn out and I have no spare Life is a commercial puzzle of which they give you no clue Grandma, if you were here, you would hate this world too It’s hard enough being a man, let alone somebody’s husband Women today have no respect, and I hold no title to a land Strong drink is all I have to remind me how to smile But I can never drink enough to carry me further an extra mile I am always pushed in the same corner every year round I have nothing to write home about, nothing to make you proud It’s not easy dear grandma, to have a heart full of dreams Yet watch helplessly, as the long winding road ahead dims To speak but have no listener, to sing and have no audience Life has been a maddening affair, down this God-forsaken ambiance You were a silver-haired woman when you died, me just a kid But I don’t know if I will manage, to live as long as you did For am tired and am thinking about joining you soon I know its much better where you are, beyond that silver moon