Danielle Williams Poet Free verse

A Journey

Appreciated, loved & admired but so, so terribly lost
in a world inside my head that I felt like I could escape but at what cost?
$20 for a dub to fill my pipe up so I can smoke 
a small price to pay for all of my trust to be broke
everything I wanted to be suddenly turned to 
as I filled my pipe up so I could take another hit
I wondered when I became a crackhead, a fiend, a whore 
appreciated, loved & admired were feelings I felt no more 
anger plagued my heart as my world tragically fell apart 
my mind was riddled with guilt & shame
I became an addict & myself was the only person to blame
lying & cheating became part of my daily life & it became really hard to tell wrong from right

But I swear I didn't mean to hurt you or cause you any pain , 
remember when you've lost everything you also have everything to gain
gain yourself back & find joy in the things you used to love
ask God for a sign from the Heavens above
a reason to get sober & stay clean
because I no longer identify as a crackhead, a whore, or a fiend 
I'm whole again...maybe still a little lost but that's okay
I'm rediscovering myself more & more every single day

The snow on the ground reminded me that I, too, can be made clean again
free from the addiction, the madness, the evil sin
free from the dope pipe, the lifestyle, & my old ways
I'm grateful that I can be made new & whole again today because $20 for dub to fill my pipe up so I can smoke is not something worth doing anymore, I know that for sure

appreciated, loved & admired 
I'm thankful for another chance to get this right 
of course when the darkness is over, you can see the light 
as lost as I once was I know I can find myself again a little at a time 
& I refuse to dim my light, I'm just gonna let it shine

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Beata Agustin November 15, 2025 at 3:34 AM Thanks for sharing this... exposing your thoughts through your unique poetic style. Welcome to Poetry Soup. I welcome you with the love of the Lord, expressed by John 3:16 of the Bible, "For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life." Be blessed.