A Hustlers Prayer

Dear heavenly father I pray to you now, submitting myself humbly with my knees on the ground…… I know you seen the times I messed around claiming that I knew you but threw your name to the ground, understanding why you cast upon me your frown. I don’t deserve nothing more, unless its your anger a fury of course. I’ve done so wrong yet you continue to let me go on, why you choose my life to have such a hold on. Show me my purpose if its good I'll accept it if it’s bad I deserve it. I’m still young and not very wise I believe it’s the reason why I put on this disguise. You know which one, it fights a lot and plays with guns. Lord you know how I can rid of this, yet you give me freedom of choice and a bad decision is what I’m left with. Your angels constantly fighting to protect me, set me free from this evil and let my love shine for thee. If not than help me proceed to things that are right and not wrongfully, to help me make a decision willingly and not end up beat up and battered spiritually. I try to pray out loud lord you know, but my feelings are at there utmost when I write to you through the Holy Ghost. Lord hear my cries and have mercy, let me drink from the spiritual cup, please I'M SO THIRSTY!!!