A Horrible Thought

A thought that suddenly arose That will i ever get i wanted?? But there is a special feeling like a rose That i will not be haunted.... But why such thought?? Why such a horrible feeling?? Trying not be caught As the pain is slowly healing.... It takes some time To be back But its not a crime Cuz I’ve lacked Is that really my thinking? Or its my fear... which is not linking Or cuz i cant bear.... Then i could try to smile openly Without hiding my pain and tear I could come out openly Without any fear.... TRYING TO GET BACK MYSELF....