A Formidable Task

Often, I fall to the ground in anguish and burst into tears, not for lack of strength, but to ask for forgiveness; seldom, I venture down a narrow and unlit road, fearing the assailant is waiting for my innocent blood! I call upon the Lord of infinite kindness and mercy to keep those bad-willed men off my treacherous trail; how I want to scrutinize the awesome universe and name a few planets with careful observance! And although I am unable to spot and discovered any, with the naked eye: I seek them more than the Holy Grail! Often, I question with disbelief how fate makes me broach, affecting my emotions and destabilizing them to incur dread when the heavy tread of footsteps approach; are they those of a ghost or is someone at the door? Not all men are evil and can boast of a massive wealth, being rich is the privilege of the few, others only dream of it; I've been assigned a formidable task which requires no stealth: to make most of this existence, not indulging in excessive guilt!