A Fools Crush

I'm reaching for the unattainable, Longed for it for so long, It's all I can think, smell, taste or dream of, He's beautifully flawed And he's all I've ever wanted, Full in touch, But empty in words, The moment passes And I'm alone again, Foolish to think I'm the one, Foolish to believe I could've been enough, Longing to cry out these feelings, Stuck in refusals, Screaming in empty spaces, Echoes bounce off walls, Where has my ghost gone, Hope for memories to revive, Clogging all senses, Hating you when you leave, Mouth full of white lies, I love you anyway, Leaping off the deep end, Can't swim, So I drown, Where have you gone, I can't find you in the body next to me, It's hard to say I've been wrong, Impossible to accept, I'll remain alone in the end