A Deep Breath

Today I awaken from hours of blissful sleep No dreams no nightmares from that world not one peep Finally my mind took a breath one so deep You can't even imagine how this feels to me. Days on in this brain turns every situation Into tragedy or complete devastation Flipping spinning analyzing every conversation Looking for his entrance in every equation Knowing he's somewhere waiting for me Watching lurking wondering how this could be I have made it further than the others in reality Still he's smiling knowing he wins eventually No one cheats death I hurt everywhere Each muscle each hair I hurt over here And I hurt over there My body keeping up with a mind half mad Only allows feelings that are bad Exhaustion and aches are mostly what's had