A Decade You Stole

Useless most times,thats how i feel,worthless,confused not a big deal. Hopless,annoyed,feeling cold in my heart. Not understanding why my world fell apart. We didnt have much but our love kept us whole,why did this happen to us a decade you stole. When i think of this family i still wish was there,im the one that gets burned noone plays fair. Feeling sorry for myself i guess that is true,im alone in these streets,with nothing to loose. Against my own will I had to give in,a looser since birth,theres no way to win. Stressed out,so depressed,could this be my sign,feeling this lost,all alone in this life. Noone to trust,all i ever loved went out the door,paranoia settled in me, god i cant take anymore. Im not needed anymore please take me away, god i beg forgiveness for not wanting to stay. When i needed you then you did not reply,understand this my lord im too weak to try. I once was a mom understand this please, so now i am nothing but only a freak...