A Criminal Bequest

Frightened and killing with guilt, Dying for a whisper of chance. Shocked anticipation, feared paranoia, Stuttered indecision, delusional memories Overwhelm and silence, Forbid pondering and acceptance. Never knowing what to say, Fooling conscience with arrogance – Pride confronts humility, Vanity defeats apology. Unveiled tremors and heart-falls Resurface encrypted and blind. Always regretting, crestfallen and forgetting – Prismic static jolting arteries and nerves. Inundated with pity in a reflection, Dismayed by opportunities for redemption – A prescription for disappointment Overdosed to the brim. Too much the coward to confront, Too much the narcissist to admit Imminent defeat and declared humiliation. Tears and bruises drenching pathetic loner, The lime-lit recluse panicking for lights And praying for sympathy in a poem. Cuts and blood measuring short of dosage Only reveal the victim’s embellished tale.