6th Death Anniversary at the grave

2025.4.16 Today, it is my late friend AP's 6th death anniversary. This morning, I visited him And brought with me not only the usual, But three more new items A popular book "The Art of Happiness", A new published "The Holly book of the Foreskin" And a frame of my embroidery work, Consisted of a poem of farewell best wishes, The song "La Paloma". Both in his language, A butterfly and the emblem of his country. All was done to commemorate his 6th death Anniversary. It has been years since his burial day, But it is still fresh in my mind and memory. Each year, I promise myself, It will be the last, but I could not help Repeatedly breaking my promises. Which was how to refrain myself from visiting AP. That was right, I always break promises Which I made solely for me, But strictly kept all for others And suffered big time. Compare to the first year back in 2019, When I visited more than 44 times, Now, I can only do twice. Will he forgive me, if for any reasons? I will can not come to pay him respect in person. Dear AP, thank you for being my friend, Despite being a womenizer, And a person who was aggressive And using abusive language You respected and treasured our friendship And especially me. You never took advantage of me And used those offensive words In my present at least from the day, I requested you not to use them. To many people, you were a horrible person, But I knew, deep down inside, You just pretended to be a tiger, When you were just a big kitten with a heart of gold. I witnessed you helped your neighbours and strangers, Like me at our first meeting. Ten years of friendship and caring relationship, Shall last me a life time of some happiness. What I loved you most, was you being able, To love me unconditionally, In your heart and put them in actions. For the past fifteen months, I met two extreme individuals, Who now longer be my friends, Their first and last meetings, Were never what and how I planned. Do I regret loosing them? Well, shall I say, it is by far, when comparing to you. Bye AP.