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"This is dedicated to all who understand this. Whether we like it or not." -D.J.E. I wasn’t gonna write this But Emotions are stirring high Cannot believe How much time has passed Still feel your presence Memories Of the slowest death Ever felt Running parallel To these present seconds An ugly revelation Tainted the sunshine That bared on our souls 365 days ago So many tears Had filled the ocean Of despair For love’s river Were held back by presumption’s walls Uncertainty The dam’s of what could have been Here I stand In this present moment Your essence still lingers Like the flakes of a dandelion b r e a k i n g f r e e From its home Tormented echoes of “why” “How come” “Please don’t go” “I love you…I love you so much” High pitched resonations Float upon Rafts of secondary importance And yet This heart still knows For it will always recall Its truth Promises Empty Played me a fool While you held hands With inevitable Crossing fingers With diffusion Across my shoulders Left me uncomfortably numb All my rights Unreserved And all the while I Simply Believed In tomorrow Because My foolish hopes Continued to warp my mind Maybe if I didn’t look back when you walked away Like the rules said… …No matter. These soft acoustic riffs Replay in my head You were my “Wonderwall” “You could’ve been the one…to save me” But I overcame For I Saved myself Didn’t want to be an inconvenience for you Colors of Fall Your favorite season Kinda ironic You were like Summer & Winter Knew when to turn up the heat Make me sweat Each new arrival A summer equinox Each departure A rainstorm But, when it was over Nothing but cold Blizzard languages Frostbitten Even solace’s bandages Could not heal But, I weathered the storm And would do it again Cause it was for real … Here I am 52 weeks have past Occasional recollection Of that hourglass With no more sands Buried in dragon’s chest You are in my silent prayer Always But Know this Even though you are contained Within my heart’s asylum cell block home I loved you With all that I had So much That you will be the only regret I will ever be proud of. © Drake J. Eszes

Copyright © | Year Posted 2011




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Date: 4/2/2014 5:52:00 PM
I'm so glad you decided to write this and share... You craft your poetry so well - so aware of the reader and so aware of your purpose. Write on! "Here I stand In this present moment Your essence still lingers Like the flakes of a dandelion..."etc...gave me goosebumps. This can be interpreted as a death in the family or someone very dear...or even someone that has just left from your sphere. ---
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Date: 4/2/2014 7:39:00 PM
Someone very dear...they'll never see this poem though. At least, I don't think so...life is full of surprises. :) Thank you so much, Laura!!!!!!!!!!!!
Date: 4/2/2014 5:52:00 PM
"your essence still lingers"... It seems you have lost someone very important to you and others and a year later he/she is back to haunt...and some kind of regret still lingers in and out...and is present in the poem.... but I am glad you have broken free and still stand tall. Watch those seeds sail with the wind... oh man... I love this one... Always, Laura
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Date: 4/2/2014 7:37:00 PM
At first, what was a "loss", was really a gain in the end. It's sad that it happened, but it's ok. I was all the better for it. I'm all for the winds. Thank you, Laura! =)
Date: 12/9/2013 12:17:00 PM
Awesome!!!
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Date: 12/9/2013 12:24:00 PM
Hi & thank you, Cathy. :)
Date: 7/23/2013 2:53:00 PM
So many beautiful lines...I love the lines about the seasons..This poem misted my eyes.It deserves a favourite : )
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Date: 7/23/2013 3:08:00 PM
As it did for mine when I wrote this...thank you so very much, Charmaine.
Date: 5/18/2013 12:30:00 AM
I really liked your opening... I wasn't gonna write this, but. Sometimes things are too sensitive, while at the same if you don't write it out, you feel a tension that keeps building up and building up. A regret that you are proud of... I must say that is almost a poem unto itself. Sums things up for me! I believe I am becoming a fan...
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Date: 5/18/2013 6:28:00 AM
Yes, holding it in is no good for the blood pressure. Yes the last line still gives me goosebumps. I'm really proud of that line. How awesome to hear! Thank so very much, Timothy! :)
Date: 5/15/2013 8:11:00 AM
Browsing through your work and found this gem. WOW... it really allowed me into your head... so much love and dedication to express in one poem. Thanks for always stopping by my poems. I really want to look up your book on Amazon-- perhaps order it, as postage from S/Africa is really ludicrous. I wanted to market my book on Amazon, but the tracking and postal fees overseas would be crippling. Have a website though... kimvbr.wix.com.kimspoetry .. trying to get some sort of exposure.
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Date: 5/15/2013 8:27:00 AM
Thank you so much, Kim! The source of this writing was something very personal to me, yes. How awesome! I'll shoot you a Soup Mail! And, of course I'll keep stopping by your work! You're damn good at it. :)
Date: 11/22/2011 2:31:00 PM
You express it so beautifully and my heart cries....memories ...but better to have.......
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Date: 11/23/2011 7:59:00 AM
Yes, definitely better to have. Thank you Lizzie!
Date: 10/9/2011 11:05:00 PM
Love the heat and cold analogy and amazing thought " a regret to be proud of". Never thought of it this way. Can I use it sometime? I love it! Hugs
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Date: 10/10/2011 8:39:00 AM
Yes, I had pondered that last part for a little while to see if it really made sense. I'm glad to see it did though. :) Sure you can. Thank you for that! *Hug*
Date: 5/26/2011 12:58:00 AM
Wow! What a poetic way to express an emotion! You love and you lost! I do understand your message. I won in your contest, thank you! Dalila
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Date: 5/5/2011 4:18:00 AM
Good morning Dalila. Thank you VERY much for saying that. Really appreciate it. :)
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Date: 5/5/2011 1:57:00 AM
Nice read tonight Drake. I love the language you use in your poem. Dalila
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Date: 4/29/2011 4:51:00 AM
Yasmin, thank you. I will do so.
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Date: 4/6/2011 5:24:00 AM
Linda-Marie, thank you so very much! :)
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Date: 4/5/2011 5:30:00 PM
Deeply intense piece Drake with dramatic lines so expressive luv.. simply marvelous .. and utterly entertaining..my friend..luv..
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Date: 4/5/2011 10:57:00 AM
Your welcome Drake(:
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Date: 4/5/2011 10:29:00 AM
Hi Roxanna! Thank you so much for that! :) That's very sweet of you!
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Date: 4/5/2011 10:28:00 AM
Shane, what I went through here, I wouldn't wish on anybody. I would recommend a better, less tearful way to become exponentially stronger. Thank you so much. That is really appreciated!
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Date: 4/5/2011 10:19:00 AM
*Applause* Very amazing and deep (:
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Date: 4/5/2011 9:33:00 AM
That was extraordinarily beautiful... kinda makes me wih i could have been you during that time to really feel what you felt...please keep writing
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Date: 4/2/2011 9:02:00 PM
Hi Lisa! Thank you so much! :)
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Date: 4/2/2011 11:45:00 AM
wonderful words and truly heart felt
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Date: 4/2/2011 5:47:00 AM
Trista & Harry, thank you both so very much. That means a lot. :)
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Date: 3/31/2011 2:25:00 PM
I really like this one, mostly becayse i can relate to it. Well done. Trista.
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Date: 3/31/2011 8:14:00 AM
Such a wonderful heartfelt tribute this is, so much emotion in each line, awesome. Harry
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Date: 3/31/2011 5:35:00 AM
Yes, indeed it was. That means a lot. I really do thank you for coming by this way! :)
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