13th Hour

My own head screaming at me every thought another fight strangling my heart he hid behind my tears every possible negative thought battling myself to do what is right always felt like i never got it tricking myself into situations, strung along confusing my own confusions mind manipulating my fears my own hopes used against me every day all day long lost my free will god came to take over no sense of self to cut anothers hand through me this is the case of the crime of your century now its gone i keep looking at the clock see how long it's been gone i am sound mind the visual images bleeding in my head foreshadowing of next paranoias deadlocked mind This new silence in my head is intoxicating the freedom to feel ok without inner harassments one happy tear compared to the sobbing of hours on end for my mind wouldn't let me be just be good, you did a great thing today you gave your life to the lord once again creativity no longer a weapon see my own self differently entirely the awe and beauty of everything overwhelming being reintroduced to me the one i will never forget again a new game for my mind to play a new way to be ok another point today intoxicating 13th hour the wave of fear when god was afraid the muse of his own spiritual syndicate of songs and dance comforted him to heal the hands inside his head