The Call
*Everybody gets The Call, that one moment, that one opportunity, that one decision that will alter the course of your life and inevitably bring you face to face with your True Destiny.
I was broken, at the Lowest point of my life, I was at The Crossroad, The Crossroad of what Was, Is, and Just Might Be. I had an ordinary Childhood and though the years were flying by , I Embraced my youthfulness, I was still Childlike by Heart even while being trapped in a Barren Wasteland of Sorrows and What If's. On the Outside life was boring and meaningless, but on the Inside there was an Ember Flickering, an Ember from a previous Bonfire that was burning in all its Glory. I had Aspirations, to find meaning, to find purpose, to make life exciting again, like when we were kids and anything we did somehow became an adventure, we were living in the moment. Though not knowing the Courage and the Fire stirring within had the potential to move mountains I was drifting aimlessly in a Dark Valley, where the only means of escape was found through a bottle or a pill, where everything was about the money and the trends and the masks we wear , surrounded by pessimism and doubt, and hoplessness and barriers and road blocks, it was a Dead End, No room for growth, No challenges, no excitement just the Same Ol' Same Ol' as they say, pick your poison kinda deal, the only thing to have been grateful for at that point was that everyone closest to me was alive and well . I missed going on adventures, hiking, camping, backpacking, going on treasure hunts with our metal detectors, going random places, doing random things, just having fun, just being happy, fully in the moment like life had meaning it was actually fun to be alive. Never having the courage to walk alone I followed the crowds into the Bars and Clubs and House Parties and found myself in a Handbasket of Emptiness. I decided to walk away from everyone and just go my own way, and so I did just that. I took a few avenues to challenge myself, Started my own Landscaping Company, worked Private Security, flew overseas to work with my cousin in Canada, worked on my uncles farm and although they were all steps in the right direction, and it felt great to take bigger challenges, there was still something missing, I was making money, I had a place to rest my head, I had a car but I was still lost, I hadn't found that place in my heart where I can stand there, and say "AHAA" This is it, this is where I belong. I felt like Truman from The Truman Show, like everything and everyone was in some shape or form holding me back from breaking out the Matrix Of illusions and stepping into my True Power, my Greatest Self. I couldn't fly without wings, I needed a major shakeup, I had to find a way, I just wanted to feel alive again, that was the mission and on one random evening the unexpected happened and what follows was a set of Divinely Orchestrated set of events that brought me Here and Now at the Valley Of Zion. I got a call from my buddy asking if I wanted to work at a lodge for the Summer up in the mountains somewhere in the outskirts of Utah. I thought about it for a moment and told him I would think about it and let him know. I brushed it off, it was too far, too risky, I had no experience, I also had a dog, Bella, she was a Wolfdog, part Timberwolf part Siberian Husky, she's all I ever had, my closest friend through all the perils from the last few years she was always by my side, I felt it was impossible to leave her behind for like 6 months. So, I turned my focus back towards trying to find a better opportunity here.
-THE DAY OF THE HAWK MESSENGER
It had been a week since my friends offer, somewhere in the back of my head I was entertaining the thought of leaving it all behind and just go, maybe it was just what I needed, I don't know, I didn't know what to think or what to do. I decided to jump on my bike and go for a ride and get some fresh air and clear my mind. It was partly sunny with patchy dark clouds, beautiful day for a ride. I was an hour into my ride and the clouds really started moving in and it started to rain, the wind too was picking up, in the distance I heard Thunder and a Lightning Strike, it came out of nowhere and it was about to pour. I turn the corner and reach the last half mile stretch to my home, I found my self face to face with the wind and of course it starts pouring, the wind is coming in hard its blowing atleast 25 to 30 knots straight into my face, I was Headstrong into the wind and in a sudden Powerful Strike Of Lightning, it was as if heaven itself Opened Up there Gates and all my cries and yearnings for something more were about to be answered. I believe God a.k.a The Universe works in mysterious ways, as if the Creator, the Divine Intelligence, the All Knowing, All Seeing, All Being itself came swooping in on the Wings Of A Hawk in Correspondence to the pleas of The Lower Nature. There was another Lightning strike and in just that same moment out of nowhere swooped in a Big Golden Hawk. I was pedalling as fast as I could to get home and out of the storm. The wind was nearly pushing me backwards, it felt like I was trying to climb a steep mountain, it was pouring rain and 10 feet away from me out of nowhere, as if it was one with the Lightning, sweeps down and starts to fly Alongside me, a Golden Hawk. We were flying together in the storm, head on. The hawk turns and looks at me and in that split second Thunder sends off a loud Boom, just as the Hawk starts Cawwing, in the heat of the moment I pumped my Fist and sent out a loud Victorious Shout as it was Cawwing away, we were in total Sync. It was such a powerful moment, I knew that was God, sending it's Messenger Of Hope, that I would embark upon this journey and it was of Utter Importance. I recieved The Call. Ecstatic and Hyped, I applied for the job and got hired and prepared for what i didn't know at the moment, what would turn out to be a Journey Of a Lifetime. I Flew with the Hawk for a good 20 seconds, we were totally synchronized, totally locked in to each other, like we were connected, like we both Got It, like we Got It, Got It! It was like all the Heavens went silent to the Awe Inspiring display of nature as it serenaded the Great Union and witnessed the day of The Great Awakening, when The Lesser Nature makes contact with the Greater. All of creation smiled down and in that moment, I was The Sun.
That was back in 2014, since than I have lived and worked, seasonal jobs at 7 National Parks at a total of 9 lodges and an additional private resort in Alaska including 2 lodges inside Grand Teton National Park in Wyoming, Glacier Bay National Park in Alaska, Mesa Verde National Park in Colorado, Grand Canyon National Park, South Rim in Arizona, Glacier National Park in Montana, Denali National Park in Alaska, Yosemite National Park in California, and in the winters I worked up in Fairbanks Alaska at a Hot Springs Resort. It's been a blast and a blessing, I was able to make friends from all over the world, experienced different cultures, made life long memories, and put me in a position to live my best possible life, to be in a position where I could be artistic, creative, energetic, adventurous, fulfilled, and most importantly Happy. Taking that chance, facing my fears, and deep diving into the abyss away from the norms and the comforts was a decision that ultimately saved my life. I found myself on this path, Free from Confines of a conformed society, I found my Wings and took Flight. Though it's been a long Journey, the Journey has just begun as I find myself standing at the Doorway To Zion, Literally!
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