Melt
All these moments that should bring happiness,
bring me sadness
i keep asking myself
if I'm depressed
I keep telling myself
I'm not depressed
I'm looking in the mirror, and I'm not that impressed
I'm sitting in the same place I was a year ago.
I haven't moved a bit.
Tears keep falling,
im broken, I'm heartless, I'm such a mess
i don't know how to say it out loud..
i don't really like talking in front of big crowds.
im trying to make my parents proud
it just never works out.
Feels like these days I don't have a god,
im hanging this rope up on the rod,
seconds away from hanging myself, I feel like I'm gonna melt
I feel a way I never felt.
Im just trying to save myself
I don't wanna melt.
Im so cold, so cold,
they say "you're so cold hearted"
they keep trying to make me melt
taking me out my comfort zone
I feel a way I never felt.
thinking of new ways to work it out
my thoughts say "use a belt"
those who don't and even those who do know me
probably think I'm suicidal
and to that I laugh
I laugh at all of you
because you want to be understood
but you never try to understand
you just hold my hand
and tell me you do.
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