Terminal Emotions
Desperation, desolation, all hope dies and withers in fate's blackened embers.
Destiny's fire once glowed red with heat but now lies in the dust and dissipates in the breeze.
Fallen, discarded fast losing faith in the dark abyss of life.
Lonely, bleak, shards of trust that dip and spiral forever downward
Hell is waiting with open arms to hold and caress as a mother caring for her child, the great pretender providing falsehood and lies that all will be well.
Pain and suffering, worn out, fatigued and expleted, heart not pumping, kidneys failing, body giving up and not responding to a broken brain's requests. Eyes blurring not fully seeing, pancreas not producing, life slowly but surely depleting.
Sleeping sleeping sleeping, eyes clamped shut, be still the world and let me sleep, I don't want this, I'm too tired, let me be, let my eyes stay shut to stay shut for all time, please let me go, please let me leave.
Hands shaking, knees swollen and cramped, skin sweating. Cannot swallow, drool runs down chin, voice slurring, Cannot walk and stay upright balance gone, departed, forsaken.
Food is an enemy and I don't want it, stop feeding me, I'm too tired to eat, it's too much for me, just let me be.
Give me dignity, let me be me
Let me be free
Dont cry for me, don't weep, shed tears, be sad, don't grieve
No guilt is yours, you could not change what fate proclaimed, bore fruit, made true, don't anger, don't blame, it's no-ones fault. Be glad for me that I can rest, have peace, be still, be calm, be free.
I will be with you as I've always been, though you won't see me I will be beside you and watch with proud heart. You are my blood, and I will live on in you as I will through the generations after you. Do not be sorry when I've gone, be happy for the time we shared. You will always feel my love as it is in your heart to feel and reassure you always.
Copyright © Christina Wadeley | Year Posted 2019
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