Bye
its hard for me to do
to give my all and still have some left for me
its something that never comes true
the fact that i just cant be free
my love with my father was pain
he recked me and im shattered still
my love with men was soft like morning rain
but now its his being that i long to kill
i look on my life and i see that it wasnt me
that i came from it all
the way i was raised was how i should be
and i think thats what is my down fall
i can hide to escape it all
but the truth is im tired of pretending
i want to jump and not fall
i cant keep loving and never have my heart get mending
everything is here but
i can grab it cause my vision is not so clear
what should i say
to the man that i looked up to
will he just look away
when i start on about how he didnt do all he could do
will the love of my life leave
like he does adn im all alone
he needs to know that hes what makes me breathe
and that i want me and him to create a home
my expectations have been shattered
by all that ive done
my feelings were never gathered
just loaded into this empty gun
things are going to be ok from now on
as soon as the nosie goes out
then i will be gone
and there will lots of tears no doubt
my blood on their hands
all the faces that were never there
the cold hearts of those that never could understand
that this was my chance to proof that i did care
showing off my face
tomorrow will come
they will have to find something to replace
me becasue i will be shattered by the barrel of this gun
Copyright © Theresa Dosiak | Year Posted 2005
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