I Understand
I’ve listened, I’ve heard
I’ve wondered, I’ve cried
I’ve been hurt a countless of times,
But I understand
Every blunt word you directed to me to express hate,
At first it used to shutter me into mirror pieces,
Reflecting the agony and anguish I felt
But today I realized, I understand
You drew me close to you,
For every moment I had with you turning to a dream come true
The caressing, the warm kisses, the long hugs to be long over due
Nothing making sense to me except the sound of love in my heart thudding in tune,
More of you for me,
A drug for a definition would be limiting to define,
More of a God that my life depends on everyday
Love being my religion of praise,
“Baby please don’t leave me”
I knelt every day to recite such a phrase
But I understand
Imagining a life without you was a nightmare
Living a life with you was hell,
Both scenarios were not recommended as they brought pain and despair
Tick tock, tick tock, the tireless clock escalating in pace
Living me with less time to spare,
Thomp…Thomp, my tears falling yet again
“Baby please don’t leave me”
To conclude yet another day of shame
Today I’m bold, the true definition of a middle finger
Directed to my past and all the pain I used to linger
They say all good things come to an end,
Yeah, I’m not gonna play that game of calling you names of regret
I’m glad I met you, I’m proud I fell in love with you
For whatever reason you degraded me for, I understand
For whatever reason you avoided my phone calls, I understand
For all the attention I tried to give yet you turned down, I understand
For all the messages you never replied, I understand too
A good lesson is never learnt through excellence, but a good lesson is learnt through disappointments and countless of tries
For what you taught me is a lesson to die for,
To accept and to understand the things I cannot change
Today I’m proud to say,
I understand……
Copyright © Andy Dube | Year Posted 2014
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