Will I Be Normal Again?
This seems like the start of something, a wild storm ,
That's going to devour me , I knew it as it formed
Don't know what's moving in ,
Or It's all fake like me and him
I don't know if I'm going to win
Against the storm that's raging within
Don't count on me
No 1 , 2 ,3
No loving me
Will I be normal again
Eating that cake again
Laughing or hurting myself in pain
I wish I was dead
In the sea I had made
Swept away by the waves
Moving away as I fade
Stranded in an ocean
Nothing but me and the blue motion
Strangely calm , though not at peace
Dreaming of the ache to cease
Roaming in the dark , with no one by my arm
Cold crawling up my spine , the feeling that's so mine
Oh you know it
Seeping through the cracks as I run away
From the feeling trying to tear me away
Will I be normal again
Eating that cake again
Laughing or hurting myself in pain
Yeah drifting farther and farther
From you and me
We'll meet again in the hell I see
Haha it's so funny like me
Ohh gosh , you're ripping me apart to set us free
We'll meet again in the heaven I dream
Haha it's so uncanny like me and him
My body breaks beneath the strain
Breathing seems so much in vain
Restless and anxious
But no one seems suspicious
Will I be normal again
Eating that cake again
Laughing or hurting myself in pain
Everyone forcing me
Scolding me ,
their words rip through me
I wish it'd be the end of me
It's so hard , tearing me apart
To live in normalcy
walk and run so carelessly
A kid on a task
wearing a thick mask
Crying within , smiling out
Like a teen in a messy crowd
Will I be normal again
Eating that cake again
Laughing or hurting myself in pain
The clock's ticking
Hairs standing
There's still a moment
We might be having
We both sit at an oak table
Feed the cake with a sip of maple
So comfy and normal
It feels so unnatural
I wish you'd understand me
Not like others who just cause anxiety
I'm not weak , I'm no fool
If you know it , you're a clever dude
I try to grab him
Like a diamond in a crowd
But that's impossible
Even if there's no one around
Finally the war's over
Him and I in the distant worlds
There's nothing left in real
Haha it feels so , so unnatural
Will I be normal again
Eating that cake again
There's no laughing now, but only pain
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