Best Poems Written by Chaitanya Adsul

Will I Be Normal Again?

This seems like the start of something, a wild storm , 
That's going to devour me , I knew it as it formed

Don't know what's moving in  , 
Or It's all fake like me and him
I don't know if I'm going to win 
Against the storm that's raging within  

Don't count on me 
No 1 , 2 ,3
No loving me


Will I be normal again
Eating that cake again 
Laughing or hurting myself in pain


I wish I was dead
In the sea I had made 
Swept away by the waves 
Moving away as I fade

Stranded in an ocean
Nothing but me and the blue motion
Strangely calm , though not at peace
Dreaming of the ache to cease

Roaming in the dark , with no one by my arm
Cold crawling up my spine , the feeling that's so mine
Oh you know it 
Seeping through the cracks as I run away
From the feeling trying to tear me away


Will I be normal again 
Eating that cake again 
Laughing or hurting myself in pain

 
Yeah drifting farther and farther
From you and me
We'll meet again in the hell I see
Haha it's so funny like me

Ohh gosh , you're ripping me apart to set us free
We'll meet again in the heaven I dream
Haha it's so uncanny like me and him

My body breaks beneath the strain
Breathing seems so much in vain
Restless and anxious 
But no one seems suspicious


Will I be normal again 
Eating that cake again 
Laughing or hurting myself in pain


Everyone forcing me
Scolding me , 
their words rip through me 
I wish it'd be the end of me

It's so hard , tearing me apart
To live in normalcy
walk and run so carelessly

A kid on a task
wearing a thick mask
Crying within , smiling out
Like a teen in a messy crowd


Will I be normal again 
Eating that cake again 
Laughing or hurting myself in pain


The clock's ticking 
Hairs standing 
There's still a moment
We might be having

We both sit at an oak table 
Feed the cake with a sip of maple
So comfy and normal 
It feels so unnatural

I wish you'd understand me
Not like others who just cause anxiety
I'm not weak , I'm no fool
If you know it , you're a clever dude

I try to grab him
Like a diamond in a crowd
But that's impossible 
Even if there's no one around

Finally the war's over
Him and I in the distant worlds
There's nothing left in real
Haha it feels so , so unnatural


Will I be normal again 
Eating that cake again 
There's no laughing now, but only pain

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