My Reflection
I serve my body day and night,
Breathing in and breathing out.
My skin’s pale and paper-thin,
People can see right through me.
I fill my lungs with nicotine
So I don’t have to stress ‘bout it.
If I had money and no sense
I'd use hard drugs and yellow pills.
Proteins, fats, and some carbs;
Four meals a day, and nothing helps.
My mom said when I was 16
That death looks better in coffins.
I've tried so hard to find something attractive in the mirrors,
All I see in my reflection’s lots of flaws and imperfections. Baby,
Turn off the lights and draw the blinds,
Touch my body, get me high.
I’ve been hiding from the eyes,
Now just hide it all inside.
I need someone to f*** me just
So I can prove i’m good enough.
In fact, it works, but who is up
For wasting that much of their time?
But when perverts online clicked "like”,
Shared, texted me and subscribed,
My ego reached new heights, and fell
When I stepped on the bathroom scale.
Influencers, pretty faces,
healthy food, and six-pack abs
On every screen, in p***, in ads,
the World Wide Web and dating apps
I've tried so hard to find something attractive in the mirrors,
All I see in my reflection’s lots of flaws and imperfections. Baby,
Turn off the lights and draw the blinds,
Touch my body, get me high.
I’ve been hiding from the eyes,
Now just hide it all inside.
Since I have no one to call mine,
I spend nights on my phone, so I
Get compliments and dirty “wows”
From strangers when they see my a***.
Since he said I don't turn him on,
I've really wondered what is wrong.
My skin cannot hide my bones,
And I can't get rid of these thoughts.
Copyright © Evgeniy Ermakoff | Year Posted 2026
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