River to sea
Now you go, In the back of my mind, Trying to remember The look in your eyes — It was calm and undefined. I search for answers I couldn’t find.
Thoughts of you fill my mind As I gaze at the stars. These bars have no end, They stretch higher than I can reach. With a feeling of guilt in my chest, knowing it's: Forbidden to see, Forbidden to talk to, Forbidden to love as I yearn for you — Day and night.
Desires of lust Fill my dreams, As time turns to dust. Years of crying and screaming. I thought I’d find something new, But I can’t leave the old. It sticks to me like Glue to a page. Afraid to leave ’cause of what might happen, Can’t bear the hurt.
Don’t know if it’s just lust, But I’m connected to you Like a river to the sea That never mixes. Clueless to let go, As I’m stuck in a pit — Can’t escape as I struggle, Fighting with old and new, Confused about what to choose. Secretly I choose the new, But it’s a forbidden fruit That can’t be taken.
I feel pulled to you, Drawn to you, A need to be with you — While hurting someone in the meantime.
It’s so wrong but feels so right. We connect — mind to heart, soul to body, as they intertwine. I choose to be with you… But would it be wrong?
Copyright © Ashley Malcolm | Year Posted 2025
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