Choices
I could never predict
The path you would choose
So much you could gain
But instead you would lose.
So many lies you've told
Because of your guilt
Destroying our lives
And everything we've built.
You just wanted to trap
Hoping you could gain
Being with a guy
Who didn't feel the same.
The testing that was done
Would prove you had lied
Wanting him so much
For anything you tried.
The moment you found out
Never having shame
You did nothing wrong
Not taking any blame.
You're little baby's life
A hefty price paid
Selfishness you showed
By the choices you made.
The feelings that you lacked
No mother you'd be
For these were your words
Just wanted to be free.
The truth you'd always hide
Putting on a show
When people would leave
You'd tell me "here you go."
You wanted your old life
For this you would say
"Please take custody"
"And I can go my way."
The day we went to court
An oath you did take
Giving up your rights
You knew what was at stake.
Your request was granted
By the Judge you'd meet
After the hearing
You asked to go and eat.
My emotions were raw
And not in the mood
Yet your only thought
Was to go and get food.
I showed you and taught you
To bathe, change and feed
Not wanting to learn
Never feeling the need.
It was more important
To party and drink
Leaving your daughter
Of yourself, you would think.
So very excited
Move to your own place
Lying to family
Just so you could save face.
The days that you'd visit
Were only a few
You'd make something up
Say "you've so much to do."
You asked us to adopt
At the bank we met
Signed all the papers
What you asked for you'd get.
Always liking drama
To others you'd cry
"They took my baby"
Knowing that was a lie.
The adoption final
Time for a fresh start
But all of your lies
Tore the family apart.
The pain that you have caused
The hurt that we feel
Our hearts you have broke
Don't think we'll ever heal.
Turned family against us
You'll text them all day
Convinced them we're wrong
They'd believe what you'd say.
The lies you hide behind
Hope one day you'll see
Demons will haunt you
The truth will set you free.
All of the destruction
You've caused through the years
You have no remorse
Not shedding real tears.
Giving away your child
Came easy for you
Your heart, cold as ice
In all you say and do.
The decisions you've made
Our son we did lose
Lost our granddaughter
Believe your lies he`d choose.
Copyright © Kelly Zakerski | Year Posted 2019
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