Lucky me
Wow lucky me
I came to you so free
I’m leaving you broken
Uprooted no tree
No oxygen, no nothing
Just barely even there
That’s what happens when you give yourself to
Someone who barely even cares
How could you dare?!
I’d scream from the pain
Drown in my tears you caused
And you would just stare
With a sinister pleasure in your eyes
With hands on my thighs
I suddenly realized my torment turned you on
I called on my angels to rescue me from your demons
We created something beautiful with my eggs and your semen
Have you ever desperately given yourself to Someone heart to someone waiting to pull the plug on it?
How about ready to put a knife on it after running so many games on it?
Have you ever loved somebody who wasn’t even who they claimed?
Someone who “loved” you so much in the beginning?
But hated you seconds later for everything they just praised?
Lucky me I got to see what it’s like to experience
The hell & betrayel
Of a narcissist male
Who put me in the coffin mentally & emotionally
And couldn’t wait to hammer in the nails
Didn’t blink or flinch
At the thought of what he caused
Just as long as the public image was good, all his problems were solved.
Lucky me I got to see…
I got to see that monsters are real
And that they are not only in scary movies
Or under my bed
Or hiding in the closet
Or a figment of my imagination
Or something in ancient times
But they live in our houses and our heads
And sometimes we call them “mine”
And sometimes we call them fine
And sometimes we see the signs
But we could never prepare for what’s on the other side.
If I knew then what I know now,
I would’ve hit reverse quicker and I would flee
But when you’re caught in the dark web of lies of covert narcissism your vision is blurred and you can’t fully see
But I got to see the monster fully now
And got out finally so I guess lucky me ??
Copyright © Sunshyne Godis | Year Posted 2025
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