The Extra Mile
All that while I thought we had a common goal.
To relive each other from past angst
to protect each other's hearts
all that while I aborted my babies because YOU were not ready.
I wanted to be worthy of you.
By allowing to be a pushover
all that while you were body shaming me every time we went out.
I yearned for your approval all-day
that I forgot the real ME
all that while I saw YOU starting to be distant,
I loved you still.
I tried being spontaneous to avoid YOU getting bored with me.
all that while I had to constantly lie about how I got my bruises.
I was scared of being without YOU,
that I would break my back defending you.
All that while I heard rumours that you were cheating on me,
YOU said my friends were jealous of us.
YOU told me to cut them off.
So, you would have the ability and chance to abuse me in all ways possible freely.
and I was blind to that because I misunderstood being used with love.
Copyright © Botlhale Ramorola | Year Posted 2023
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