Secrets I Hide
I never knew why I felt different and alone,
family didn't help much little kindness I was shown.
I hated being me especially what's inside,
I didn't know who to tell so my secrets I did hide.
I hid them from those who were supposed to be so near,
no one even noticed that everyday I lived in fear.
Fear because I thought it all happened because of me,
I didn't know he was to blame I was too young too see.
I should have been protected from those who meant me harm,
instead my mom invited him in falling for his charm.
Mom wasn't ever there she was always so high,
every single time he'd hit her we would all cry.
I'd stay awake every night to scared to even sleep,
swearing to myself that these secret I would keep.
Time went on and we grew older things stayed the same,
I'd hope and pray that she would leave him but that day never came.
Eleven years of deeply embedded hurt,
eleven years of being scared and treated like dirt.
Then it happened she left him for good,
I wish she did it sooner if only she could.
Finally I'm free of the man that I grew to hate,
If It only happened quicker my mom was to late.
Late because he hurt me in more ways than one,
only that can't be changed now because what's done is done.
The secrets I once kept inside are free at last,
but it still doesn't change the fact that I grew up way to fast.
I'll never get my childhood back that's gone for good,
but I wouldn't even change the past even if I could.
True what happened should had never been done to me.
still I'm stronger because of it everyone i know would have to agree.
Copyright © Christian Humphreys | Year Posted 2008
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