Numbness
Silent rejection is the worst kind of pain that can exist
It is an invisible constant bleeding
The only cure is love
People might say they love you
but do they show it?
Are you capable of feeling it?
When rejection has been so constant
there is a numbness that exudes
a non caring attitude
Lost I am at times in this world, there are parts of me I have never met
Someone once told me if I don't resolve my past , how can I move forward
I am moving, but the past walks right beside me
I am trying to find someone , but where is he ?
How much longer must I wait for him to come to me
It is very painful to be invisible
and even more painful to not be able to express it those
you are invisible too because they will never understand
It is an unknown unexpressed depression of sorts
I have to maintain face, normality through my inner chaos
years of repressed sadness, ignored madness
I think everyone else thinks I see, but I know this is all making me
blind, and I can not find what is really going to make me free
Copyright © Barbara Rosas | Year Posted 2020
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