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Mandisa Bynum Poem
Was i Wrong to tell you how i felt
and show you things you never felted.....
I must of been dumb to think that you would think the same
but i didn't know it would happen this way....
How crazy of me to think you could love me the way i wanted to love you?!
Was i really wrong...of course you been hurt
but i thought just like me you wouldn't stop....
How could i have thought without thinking????
Your scared and I've should of known
Was i Wrong.....
Sorry for all this that had happen...very much i am..
I beg for forgiveness and I'll never do it again...
but.....um...soooo...i just wanted to know???
Was I wrong???
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I felt lost before
but never like this at any point in my life.
You are like my best friend and that husband i could look for...
to you from me i don't like this feeling at all.
I don't want no one else to have you.
Like al green.....
I want our worlds to combine to love and happiness
But, now, i'm losing you to fear.
You said i was a dream come true and that you wanted me.
Please, give in to how you feel about me and let me worry about your hurt....
I can't and i refuse to lose you to what shuts us up the most.
losing you is the worst thing that can happen to me right now....
My world
i lost it all
to the fear and pain
My love
i lost it all
to the fear and pain
I regained all of that back.
I recovered from the heartbreaks.
I'm ready to share my notebook..
But.......
My adoring Panda
i'm losing you
to the fear and pain...........
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It's the way I look at him, the way he smiles back...
but I don't know how to feel, will I forever be confused about these chills?
I look down and wonder...
Who means the most, who's love means more?!
It's the way that I look at him, it's the way he smiles back...
Hmph... What does this really mean?! I know its not love, well is it?
No.
Standing at the door... Not desiring to walk through.
Fear...?
No.
I'm just very unsure.
All I know is... that smile...
It's the way he looks at me, the way he catches my eye.
Sometimes I fight myself,
Try and fix myself...
but now... I'm stuck.
So, I go through the side door never look back at the front porch...
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Falling tears cover my pillow and I find myself asking my motherly willow, "How
can I fallow my heart when its stuck in confusion?".
Hopeful wishes has left me aside to failing dreams,
Now believing in my heart is harder then what it seems..
I find you very hard to see, when everything now will never live up to what it used
to be..
Led to the bottom of your pit just to find that you would leave me there with no
light..
So, now as I front you, I may give up this fight..
You need to search each section that makes love free and enter the chambers
where it bleeds..
I would hate to leave you be but if you want this your going to have to de-heart
me..
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As she sits in a distance,
She spots his face
That smile,
She begins to love,
Not just like.
In a huge crowd she knows him,
The funny story is…
At times… She doesn’t like him
But all the same
She knows him.
That voice
Really mean but sometimes sweet.
Call her undecided
When it comes to him,
She clueless…
As she sits in a distance,
She watches him…
He’s times with others
And he’s moments alone.
She looks.
As he leans against the wall,
One leg up,
Doing the usual,
You know… “Vibin”
But still… she thinks… at times… she doesn’t like him.
He looks her way,
She rolls her eyes,
While turning into a new direction.
As he smiles he looks,
She still gives him that face.
As she sits from a distance,
He walks by,
She ignores him.
He pokes her,
But she shoos and moves away.
A funny feeling isn’t allowed,
Any emotion shouldn’t be shown.
So… she moves
But he still pokes,
Still looking at her… that awful smile she begins to love.
No matter how mean she gets,
He just gets mean back.
Causing her to smile and push away.
Yet he never leaves nor does he get upset,
But he just looks… Poking…
She looks at him,
Hard ,
Thinking to herself,
He’s weird.
And as she sits from a distance
She realizes
He’s going to do, what he wants to do.
She looks at him saying. “UGHH”
He smiles,
Saying, “You know, you love me”
She thought… he is weird
She smiles… because he’s a brat,
But her brat
At times she may not like him,
Yet she knows him,
In any crowd from any distance,
She spots him.
Sitting so close to him,
She watches,
Looking at him,
Wondering,
How she loves that lovely little smile.
By: Mandisa Bynum
01/09/2008
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Love's measurement is distant between the two,
maybe to see whats true is to put them through.
Force to let go a hand and not touch ever again.
Transform the pain to tears and turn the love to hope for a better gain.
Wait for the "another life" beyond the end of the road,
see whos love won't fold.
Wait through now to get to later,
where love's journey can truly beginning and have no hold downs.
Can the two's love get to graduation,
to grasp on to tomorrow?..
The hope is that they just might,
with true care and faiths light.
Risk it may,
Risk it might,
Risk it is but why give up the risky fight,
and put hope aside..
Another life is a better opportunity after wait's graduation.
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When a lifetime takes the time off and forever ends, today's tomorrow is crushed by
yesterday's..
When sleep refuses to arise and bring the world sight, awaken is stumbled to dark lurkin
corners..
As forever runs back on time life revives just to unrevive again..Forever has fell asleep while
lifetime took days off, so now our world is left ashamed..
When forever sleeps the heart's insane and tomorrow is taken out the game..
Without forever there is no lifetime and without a lifetime there's no forever..
When forever sleeps the days die for the momment..
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She jumped off the cliff,
too fall from him.
but she still saw him on her way down.
she filled the tub,
to drown the sight of him,
yet his image remains in the bloody waters.
she hung from a rope,
to end the life in his world
but she saw him still on the other side.
she got in the car,
all windows up,
in the blazing sun.
suffocating to draw from the sight of him,
but even at her point she saw him outside her windows.
In the middle of the desert she burns to flames... his voice,
she hears his voice through the sands whisper her name,
the heat waves waver a form him,
...and he smiles.
"always and forever" it sing.
she lies in the middle of her cage looking out at the future. wondering
if it knows...
then the door opens and that dream ends..
"always and forever" he whispered.
she looked towards the future and watched it fade away.
"always and forever" she says,
......."a prisoner".
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Just a lost one out soul, starin at the wall while disaster unfolds...
Never truly knew the cream of the crop, but at this to the list, he neva knew the
pops...
Hallow walls sit deeper around his chest and the heart's so cold, no longer can it
flex..
Just the loneist kid from around the way, lookin for a plce, just a place to stay..
Thoughts ran through the mind to get away, far away..
Always saying being this empty is okay, by myself like the needle in the hay..
Reality is, it'll never happen..The best of the best will fly, as the worst of the worst
dies..
All alone the chamber heart cries, cries because its wounded soul lie, between
the depths of love and hate..
Ask how life is and the lonely kid will say,"It's a chip off the ol plate..GREAT just
really great." Lowered eyes hold the mind of distortion and depression...as he
walks away he mumurs "great jus great..its lik bein a fork without aplate..just
useless"..
No footprints left where he had walked, that presence he had was blocked.
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Sketch me you so that i can understand,
Draw me tears so that i can cry,
Connect me so i can have thoughts,
Fix me a smile so that i can have joy,
Teach me so that i can learn,
Write me a nose so that i may breathe,
Tune me ears so that i can hear,
Help me so that i may move,
Color mr colors so that i can have a life,
Passion me so i can have a soul,
Admire me so that i love,
Site me so that i may have eyes,
But.......
Don't erase me to the empty side of you.
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