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Diyana Ayuni Abd Nasir Poem
“Do you like him?” She glances at the boy across the room with her lips curling into a small smile. The boy who managed to trigger her attention. But that smile of her, there’s something about that smile. It’s sincere yet it’s somehow sad. It’s broken and wrecked. Just like her heart.
“I don’t know. I’m confused.” She sighs to herself and looks away from those pair of dark black eyes hidden beneath his glasses.
She is torn between her past and the present. A part of her wants to embrace love while another part of her keeps pulling her back, reminding how love hurts her back then. She is constantly reminded of what someone did to her that molds the woman she is today.
“Find the answer yourself.” With a gentle shake of her head, she looks at her friend and smiles.
“Well then, I do not like him” and just like that she continues putting up the bricks to the wall she has been building for a while. A wall she came up with when she was left broken and hurt. It was almost complete so she decided to continue putting up the concrete walls.
Just like that, she pushes love away from her wrecked wounded heart. She needs time, more time to heal before choosing to open again.
via 2 AM thoughts.
Copyright © Diyana Ayuni Abd Nasir | Year Posted 2017
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Diyana Ayuni Abd Nasir Poem
Little did she know,
Every day that passes by,
Her heart blooms like a flower who met sunlight for the first time.
Her cold hard lips now curving into a sincere smile each time their eyes meet.
Her sad eyes beginning to show some light.
Her messed up emotions back to its own place.
All of this happening because of only for reason,
One reason that we all know.
That one boy whose beautiful eyes stopped her heartbeat,
That one boy whose captivating smile turned her knees weak,
Thay boy whose overwhelming charisma changed her perception.
And she all wanted is to escape.
Escape from this unwanted feelings.
The feelings that had bloomed inside of her,
The feelings she once wanted to avoid,
The feelings that had hurt her before,
The feelings that turned her ice cold.
But it's too late.
She knows she is in a deep mess.
And the only way to escape,
By loving him more each day.
Hoping that one day,
Love will settle into its place.
Copyright © Diyana Ayuni Abd Nasir | Year Posted 2015
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Diyana Ayuni Abd Nasir Poem
Dear twenty year-old self,
You are probably exhausted right now,
From all the physical and mental problems,
Having to live up to expectations,
While having to tolerate mankind.
You are probably hurt right now.
Over the boy whom you only watch from afar,
Never looking your way,
Never even had the intention.
You are probably down right now,
Looking at the lovers with a bitter smile,
Questioning why your life isn’t that way.
Someday, someone will be there,
Not now, not tomorrow,
But someday, when love is ready for you.
You are probably empty right now.
Laughter and sounds surrounds you, but loneliness still lingers.
Fighting with the feelings behind closed walls,
Only portraying to the world your bitter smile,
For it is way better than explaining.
I know you are having a hard time right now.
You are fighting with your own feelings.
You are smiling because you are tired of questions.
You are barely surviving.
But I promise you my dear,
Five years from now,
You’ll be the matured, strong, independent woman,
Who stands on her two feet,
With a majestic grin,
Because you are no more the twenty years old vulnerable girl,
Who thought she will not make it today.
D.A
Copyright © Diyana Ayuni Abd Nasir | Year Posted 2017
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