Best Poems Written by Trinity Rogers

What If

As I sit here in the darkness straining to see any light that is hope, will, and 
meaning. A darkness consumes me. As I give up what is left of my innocence’s. 
What was once my dreams. I no longer have to wonder what it will be like. I no 
longer have to fantasize about it because now I know its not all people say it is 
but it is something you’ll never forget you’ll always remember the first time. 
Always compare it to all the others .
It will drive you crazy afterward thinking about it. 
But it will stop. Putting it all behind me now seeing that I was wrong for doing it. 
That it was not love but something often mistaken as it. Now as I think I become 
angry and wonder WHY and HOW  I could do this to myself.
What was kindness,compassion,and trust is now shyness,loneliness,and hate 
toward myself and everyone around me. Because I know that I can’t take it all 
back that everyone was right that I should have waited for the perfect time, 
person, and then love would have been apart of it not just mistakenness 
Now sitting still thinking about it all as I ponder

Copyright © Trinity Rogers | Year Posted 2006