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Mackenzie Lesjack Poem
I don't share how i feel
you play it off like its no big deal
when i know it hurts you
you think i dont trust you
affraid i only lust for you
but baby that aint true
its me not you
im here to stay
dont worry; though your not here i'm okay
the choices we make, to right the mistakes
its never too little, never too late
because im saying goodbye is the part I hate
I cant help feeling
feeling like im letting you down
Never being enough
Acting with a hard exterior trying to be tough
when all i want is your love
with you i have that fairytale love,
complete with the doves
Everything is perfect, even when my world is crashing down
with you i never show a frown
with you i'm complete
no need to compete for you love
its entirly mine
big heart, clear mind
never thought it was love i would find
are you ready?
this game chose you and me
there is only one problem my insecurity.
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This could change my life.
He knows all i want is to be his wife.
I'm so ready to be gone,
I'm so sick of feeling alone
Should i stay or should i go?
I ask my best friend and she says "hell no"
Its not like I'll be gone forever
Only one more year and we'll be back together.
Its a fresh new start,
With someone i love with my whole heart.
So many thoughts in my head
as i lay on this cold stiff bed.
I just want to be in your arms,
Just so scared of who this all harms.
My hand shakes as i write about this decision,
Like a new doctor making his first incision.
In my heart its a 100% yes
But in my head I'm thinking 'is this the best?'
All the thoughts of this goin right
Out wieghs the thoughts saying 'this isnt so bright'
Finally out of the madness
No more having so much stress.
No more screaming in my face
Finally ill be in the right place
Just hoping they accept me into their home
Because God knows i cant do this alone.
This isnt a maybe
are you ready baby?
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Mackenzie Lesjack Poem
Never noticed that my skin was such a funny pink
All I see is pink, that is until I blink
Then I begin to see black
Though it may not be black, its not a proven fact
I love to stare into the darkness
Everyone close to me knows thats where my heart is
As I blink I see them both
Such a beauty they both behold
Alone they are so plain
but when they are together I cant contain
the joy i have inside
When i close my dark brown eyes
The two colors were ment to be
The only two colors i can see
While society doesnt think the same
out of this many beautiful people came
Never knew color ment so much
I mean they feel the same to the touch
Color doesnt matter to me
and a role model is what im trying to be
for all the kids who see a different color when they blink
telling them selves they're wrong to even think
No matter what color you love
We will all end up together blinking above.
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Mackenzie Lesjack Poem
You said you love me,
No one above me.
But lately you choose the game.
I thought you meant what you said, what a shame.
Though it hurts i stay by your side.
Just know your walking a thin line.
One day i'll have you back.
I'll always be here,
Whether were in a hoopdy or a cadillac.
I'm scared for you,
Dont know what i would do if i lost you-no clue.
And i'm not talking about you leaving,
'cause our love has too much meaning.
I'm talking about the next guy pulling a heat.
Thats what i mean when i say i dont want you to leave.
I miss you baby,
Im here to stay
I want to be your one and only lady
I promise its gunna be me and you
Until its through.
You got my heart
Till death due us part.
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not sure how we feel.
we love but arent sure how to deal.
knowing how we feel in our hearts,
its just so hard being so far apart.
he feels loved,
and when im with him i feel like im on the best drug.
complete, but sad not being able to hug.
everytime we talk we fall a little more.
so happy you got me,
no more loving with your heart tore.
love dont come easy,
especialy when you have the game of waiting.
but its okay baby
cause im patient.
never in a rush.
all i want is you and your soft touch.
complete from a distance.
dont stop - or we might miss this.
he sometimes stops beleaving
but my smile always keeps himi from leaving
he says he love the way im care free,
not what everyone else is trying to be
hoping that you see everything we could be.
happy and never alone,
your heart is where i call home.
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Mackenzie Lesjack Poem
This hate runs through my viens and out my mouth.
This *****litterally isn't good for my health.
My silence is my medicine,
Why share what trouble i've been in?
You were never there, and I mean really there.
You werent there to wipe my tears or fix my hair.
So don't tell me that you ever cared.
Hate has never ran so strong
For someone i barley knew all along
You were a figment of my imagination
and now your a real human creation.
your my dad?
How can you love me when you always so mad?
Its funny how you claim me
but you weren't there to raise me.
Being a dad is more than getting my mom knocked up
I'm sorry what im saying is so upfront.
But it was never you.
and sometimes I wish that *****you told me was true.
How you think I'm not yours.
I mean if you really don't want me
then let that *****be known
and I swear ill be gone.
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done with all the he said she said.
franticly in my mind.
unknowingly it helps us grow sometimes.
im complete as a failure.
leaving all feelings behind
no more hiding,
no more need to
numb to the words and the blows too.
you seeing the water falling from my eyes
gives you power
something i completely despise
im okay with being not okay
im good at keeping my feelings away.
hid behind a door.
where you nor her can see my face anymore.
around you i walk proud,
like nothings wrong
not even a blink of an eye.
but when i get home,
i sit and i cry.
so sick of the thoughts in my mind.
wish it would all go away
the only enjoyment is when im high.
gone like the wind.
and yes there is a bulls eye,
in the middle of the target you've lately painted on my back.
i feel the burnin heat of your eyes
i've tried everything
but with you there is no comprimise
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Don't know how much longer i can do this,
In the begining it was nothing but bliss.
Used to talk every day.
Now i cant even get a simple hey bae.
I feel like were slippin.
You say 'Naw shawty you trippin'.
Never knew it could hurt to love someone.
So done.
Ready to roll up and smoke another one.
Ready to give up.
Kuzz with you there is no love.
Stop my self from calling.
Kuzz i know i'll end up falling
A little harder, like i do everytime.
Heart so f-cked up.
Suprised i can write this rhyme.
I miss you so much.
Wish i could feel your touch.
Letting me know its okay.
Wish you would end this game you play.
But i go on living day by day.
With a pretty smile on my face.
Wish your heart was my place.
It was so close i could taste it.
But then again, maybe its not the right fit.
In the end feels like no one else will take it,
This love i have, in this small broken heart
I give on my behave.
On you i will never give up.
Your always gunna have my love.
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