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James Sanborn Poem
Why must I love the way that I do
With everything
Knowing that in the end
I have nothing
I'm a side note in her story
She was to be part of my grand finale
I have tried time and again
But can't lose this feeling
Feelings change without remorse
From dreaming of tomorrow
Just hoping to make it through the day
Why must I love the way that I do
With everything
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James Sanborn Poem
The walls are closing in
You're gonna suffocate
No idea where your going
But know you can't be late
Everything is falling apart
Like it's busting at the seems
Your life is becoming a nightmare
Worst than you could of dreamed
You feel like you're choking
Why doesn't anyone seem to care
If your invisible
Then why do they continue to stare
Not enough time in the day
Even when you add in the night
So tired of being consoled
People saying oh it will be all right
Just tell me how to fix it all
It's not just my eyes that continue to deceive
The truth to why I seem so blue
Life forgot to let me breathe
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James Sanborn Poem
She just don't get the way it makes me break a little more cause she pays me no mind
I'm so in love with her, but that feeling for me she left so far behind
Even when we're together we're not, she's here but always has something else to do
Before you know it she's fast asleep, exhausted from avoiding only you
She fakes how she's feeling while hiding the real down deep
She's made up from a puzzles missing Pieces
A dream about a nightmare so she never sleeps
She's that thing everybody craves, but you don't know how to get more
She will rip you to shreds, while she's making you feel stronger then before
Hurt you with actions beyond your comprehension
Ask why your upset for
She will bring back your smile
Become most of the tears that escape from your eyes
Not allowing herself to be happy, her demons eat her soul alive
Everyone just thinks, it's just who she is and how she rolls
As I see she's simply lost all semblance of control
She won't settle for everything, yet she wants nothing at all
She one phone call away from an emergency call
Maybe some will notice, and pull her in tight Was it truly only me, that could do nothing quite right
So pray to whoever you pray to
Shout at them if you please
That she finds what she's looking for
Before becoming nothing more than a whisper in the breeze
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James Sanborn Poem
I need to tell someone about this
The people I must tell I no longer have
Nor did I ever dry your eyes boy
Men aren't allowed to be sad
This was the final blow
Why was I so hardcore
What's. A mom and a dad
all the fighting is finally done
I must have looked so stupid or insane
From the first moment, I took my first breath, Not knowing life had already won
Somewhere there's laughter
As they heard me say time and time again
I might be losing this battle
It doesn't matter it's the war I have to win
Instead of climbing to the mountain top
I dug my own grave deeper in the ground
In a place that no one ever goes
With the hope to never be found
My all wasn't even close
Not even close to what it ing takes
Maybe love bypassed me
Since I'm the perfect mistake
I'm everything that's wrong
I never feel alright
I was looking through blind eyes
While having 20/20 site
So if you want to hear
About a mouse who thought he was a man
Telling everyone he had it figured out
Still following the wrong plan
Tell my story to everyone, even if you have to shout
A bunch of horrible choices constantly being made
I thought I could beat life
when it was life that invented the game
It cut me open like a knife
I accept I've lost and can't fight on
I'll head back to the to the darkness
For the darkness is never gone
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James Sanborn Poem
Lost
A child without dreams
Given this child an abundance
Of nothing
Stolen this child's dreams
A parent
Who needed a parent
Instead became one
To young to know
Bullets
Confusion
Terror
All stayed
Never dreaming again
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James Sanborn Poem
What would be different if I gave up so long ago
Would earth stop turning, would the grass no longer grow
I had the opportunity, when in my hand once again a found a gun
Only eleven with this life I was already more than done
I hated to wake up to another day of
If there was an answer was this always it
The only feeling that was familiar was neverending pain
Still somehow amongst themselves on me they'd put the blame
So I made a choice to put that gun down
No matter the beating life was giving me I would fight another round
It was simple my heart took over and for a moment it was clear
My giving up will not be the reason you are shedding tears
I have some how not folded although I've been so close
I just hope I've done enough in the end for someone to stand and make a toast
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James Sanborn Poem
I sit in silence, listening to my heart
Questioning myself still
Is there enough warrior left in me
To finally conquer this gigantic ??? that was once only a hill
All thoughts lead to one thing
Her love
It has brought me back to this place
A place full of without rock bottom
Only repetitive fall have made many a time before
Her love drives me
One final battle with the undefeated enemy
A duel with this familiar foe
I had all but given up and surrendered
As she handed me this beautiful flame, that reignited the fire
I have been so close before reaching out to grab the treasure,
Then the into the darkness I would rapidy descend
So this time I will not fall alone, no I will bring her with me as she begins the neverending feeling of her man and herself falling in love
So once again I climb
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James Sanborn Poem
It was something like a spark
That set there souls on fire
With each other they new there could be heat
Not to mention an animalistic desire
They were cut from different cloth
Grew up on opposite sides of the street
Time and pain passed through there lives
All ready tied to someone is how they first met
Not ten sentences in the beginning
He was having trouble trying not to stare
Withouts batting an eye she paid him no mind
Barely acknowledging he was there
Clocks and calendars kept moving
As did they
Both on the other side of their struggles
To His chance what was he to say
They text back and forth
He flirted she while sat and sighed
Then nothing
So more time went by
Then they started talking
About life's beginning, middle and end
Neither looking for love
Still they both could use a friend
Then there was butterflies
They forgot these feelings even exist
So they both threw caution in the wind
Embracing each and some of the things they missed
Both so torn apart
Maybe they could mend together
In a storm of emotions, they were lightening
Simply lace still needing leather
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James Sanborn Poem
She's a puzzle without pieces
A volcano above the clouds
It's impossible to follow her lead
Still she's a beautiful silence I want to sing out loud
She doesn't understand herself
As she learns to see others beyond there mask
Her emotions run motionless
Like liquor from an empty flask
She loves to ride lightning
Living life by the flash
Burns brighter than the sun
Continues to help people ride from the ash
She's love that doesn't know love
Hates only herself
Finding small moments of peace
What she sees as wealth
Only one step away from a goddess
Stays miles away from god's
Perfect in that she's imperfect
She's a pea in the open whose broke free of her pod
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I felt it for a moment
As I blew through, like the wind does sheets hanging out to dry
I was euphoric
It was mine
The power it possessed was like none other
Without trying it could move mountains, while covering the desert with rain
I knew what it was
It was mine
With it came hope and long lost dreams
My soul was hungry for more of it's beau vtiful array of food for thought
So my soul ate from it's bountiful garden
It was mine
Then the light started to fade suddenly
As quick as it came it has left
Leaving a trail of tears far worse than anything before
It was mine
Comfort turned cold
Alone I stood again
Only knowing one thing for sure
It was never mine
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