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Kim Powell Poem
loss is a sad word, from experience i speak
I come from a past that was very bleak.
I can't give my husband the baby he wants
In my dreams, my loss it haunts.
I feel I let every one down
because a true grandchild from us will never be found.
Why did my body kick you out before your time
my body made you leave before you was in your prime.
when I held you in my arms you had already gone
I cried that night till the early dawn.
In heaven you are now, with God by your side
When I said I forgave you Lord, I'm sorry I lied.
I still don't understand why you took my babies from me
my heart is heavy with hurt sometimes its hard to see.
I have no baby to rock to sleep at night
and I have no babies to love and to hold tight.
A very good mother I would really be
Please give me a chance for you to see.
Copyright © Kim Powell | Year Posted 2005
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I need a baby to make me whole
I need a baby to love and to hold.
I can't seem to shake all the sad emotions
my life is a rollercoster with up and down motions.
To have a baby would make me complete
Most of my sadness would be obsolete.
I want to experience all of motherhood
I would be the very best mother that i could.
God give me a chance to show you all the love in my heart
Give me a chance to do my part.
Is adoption the way to go
I need an answer please tell me so.
Is my sadness here to stay
or is better things headed my way.
i need some help because my faith is hurting
my thoughts about you have been concerning.
To take my babies was a mean thing to do
all of the sorrow you have put me through
I need my angels more than you.
Please tell me if my life will get any better
or do i have to stay in this stormy weather.
Please give me the answers that i seek
So i can find my happiness and not be weak.
Copyright © Kim Powell | Year Posted 2005
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I want a baby and I want it now
please help me out and tell me how.
How can you give her a baby and not give me
one
tell me, to deserve this, what have I done?
Maybe I didn't go to church like I should
But so much stuff is not understood.
I can't find the answers that I seek
for this you must consider me weak.
I try to be the best person I can be
but you still take my babies away from me.
If you listen to prayers then hear mine
I'm ready for a baby and I think its time.
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As the trees sway gently in the wind
I'm waiting for my new life to begin.
As the birds fly high in the sky
I am writing this with a sigh.
To give up would be an easy thing to do
I almost did, this much you know is true.
I couldn't face the things going on around me
in my mind I just wanted to flee.
To know why things happen as they do
to be given answers or given a clue.
When nothing is known it plays with your mind
but sometimes the questions are harder to find.
As the sun sets over the trees with colorful fading
I'll still be sitting here patiently waiting.
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When life lets you down what do you do?
I have no answers and i haven't a clue.
To all of my departed babies I think of you all the time
for you to be taken from me was such an awful crime.
I don't understand what happened and did everything right
I would give anything to be holding you tight.
I'm so mad at God for what he has done
He took you from me before your life really begun.
I was teased to carry you most of the way
but you were born so early to all of our dismay.
Six months isn't long enough to give you a chance
but my body forced you to be here way in advance.
To have heard your first cry would have been music to my ears
but when there was silence I cried so many tears.
when your heart seems to shatter
nothing else at all seems to matter.
They say time can help heal a broken heart
But mine will stay forever broken since we are apart.
Copyright © Kim Powell | Year Posted 2005
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Kim Powell Poem
As the trees sway gently in the wind
I'm waiting for my new life to begin.
As the birds fly high in the sky
I am writing this with a sigh.
To give up would be an easy thing to do
I almost did, this much you know is true.
I couldn't face the things going on around me
in my mind I just wanted to flee.
To know why things happen as they do
to be given answers or given a clue.
When nothing is known it plays with your mind
but sometimes the questions are harder to find.
As the sun sets over the trees with colorful fading
I'll still be sitting here patiently waiting.
Copyright © Kim Powell | Year Posted 2005
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Kim Powell Poem
My babies
When my days are finally done
in heaven i can see my daughters and son
Megan, Anna, and, Peyton I miss you so
I wish you didn't have to go.
To be taken away so soon in your life
my heart felt like it had been cut with a knife.
When i held you for the first time you had already passed
tell me how long this sadness will last.
I had to wipe all the tears from my eyes
the day we had to say our good-byes.
I had so much love to give
if only you were to live.
To hold you in my arms would be so sweet
to see your precious smiles would be so neat.
I will get to see you in heaven one day
keep watching over me and help me find my way.
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Behind these blue eyes is so much sorrow
always wondering about tomorrow.
so much guilt and so much pain
about the babies I couldn't name.
So many pregnancies that went bad
so many reasons to always be sad.
There is a baby out there made just for me
but for right now i just have to wait and see.
I wouldn't take for granted what so many people do
the whole experience would always be brand new.
So until the day I get my joy
I'll be dreaming about a girl and a boy.
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God what is your plan for me
I can't wait to see.
Why am I in so much pain
sometimes it's hard to stay sane.
What could be your purpose to cause me so much sorrow
what do you have planned for me tomorrow.
To take my babies away was an devestating thing to do
I have to wonder if all this bad stuff is through.
You know i would have loved my babies with all of my heart
But i wasn't given a chance to do my part.
Is there a baby in my future please tell me so
that is the only question i'd like to know.
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I need to find my place on this earth
What was the reason for my birth.
I have seen so much sorrow
What could your plan hold for tomorrow.
What is the cause of so much pain
I feel my whole heart has been slain.
A bad childhood waited for me
so much devastation i'm sure you would agree.
now my arms are empty with no child to hold
If I asked you why God, would that be too bold?
They say there are others who have it worse than me
But are their hearts as broken, that is the key.
My heart was so filled with so much love
for the babies now with you above.
Please give me an answers I seek
Or will my future look just as bleak?
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