Best Poems Written by Shreya Adhikari

I Killed Myself

What a beautiful day !
Said me as I woke up feeling so tiny
Under the enormous sky above me,
And the incessant greenery 
That hugged me from beneath 
Oh ! How gorgeous it felt !!

Though a bit confused to find
Not a single soul around,
Yet a hundred and one times
Lighter I was than yesterday .
Oh ! How patiently had I waited for this !

Tell me, oh God ! 
Where is my heart pain gone ?
Why do my feet not feel the tenderness of the grass ?
Why do my arms move with the slightest wind ?
Why do I not remember where I woke up to ?
Tell me , oh God !
Where do I go now ?

I walked and walked 
Expressionless and empty 
Feeling so vacant from inside 
Dad would have lifted me up 
Mom would have caressed me 
Oh ! How badly do I miss them 


Broken and worthless , 
I slept again and woke up
In my house this time 
I saw my parents
I had been dreaming
Was I happy ? No
Was I sad ? No 
Why ? 

I saw MYSELF in my room 
Sleeping as if I would never wake up 
My face looked pale
My limbs were numb 
I touched myself and detected somehow
My body necessitated me !
So why did it shove me away when I attempted to throw in ?

I realised I could never get in 
I realised I could never wake up 
I realised I could never live 
I realised I was dead 

I killed myself 
And I tried to unkill myself !

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