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SOMETHING HAPPENED TO ME WHEN I WAS JUST A GIRL
IT INVOLVED A BAD MAN, & IT RESHAPED MY WHOLE WORLD
A NEW SET OF DEMONS WERE INTRODUCED INTO MY LIFE
PAIN, & SHAME, DESPAIR, ANGER, & STRIFE
THERE WAS GREAT CHAOS IN MY LITTLE SOUL
AND IT GREW, AND IT STAYED, AND INCREASED EVERMORE
THERE WERE NO PSYCHOLOGISTS, OR THERAPISTS FOR THE RAPED WHO WERE POOR
AND THE DREAMS!
OH, THOSE DREAMS
SO GRAPHIC, SO REAL
I BEGAN GOING WITHOUT SLEEP
I BEGAN NOT WANTING TO FEEL
I COPED WITH THE INNER-TURMOIL IN A NEGATIVE WAY
I GRASPED ON THOSE DEMONS WHO WERE WITH ME
BECAUSE PAIN BEGETS MORE PAIN
AND SO, THIS WAS MY REALITY & THE JUST OF MY LIFE
HURTING BUT SMILING, DEAD BUT ALIVE
THEN, YET MORE CHAOS....WHEN I BECAME MOMMY & WIFE
THOSE DEMONS, MY COMPANIONS, THEY INVITED SOME FRIENDS
THEY HAD TO, THERE WAS MORE OF ME TO SHARE, IN THE FORM OF CHILDREN
BUT GOD......
SAID, “ OK, THAT’S ENOUGH!”
THEN HE BREATHED IN AND HE BLEW......
“HI, I’M JESUS, GOD’S SON,” SAID A VOICE, “AND I DIED JUST FOR YOU.”
“ALL THAT STUFF THAT YOU’RE HOLDING, GIVE IT TO ME.”
THEN HE HACKED AND HE CHASED AND SPOKE AND HE PRUNED
AND WHEN I THOUGHT MY FOOT WAS SLIPPING
HE SAID, “ MY GOOD WORK IS NOT THRU! FOR MY LOVE IS ETERNAL.”
“AND WHEN YOU HURT SO DO I. NOW IT IS MY TURN TO RESHAPE YOUR LIFE.”
YET ANOTHER VOICE APPEARED, AND IN A WHISPERED HE SAID
“ I AM GOD. I’M YOUR FATHER, AND I’VE MISSED YOU SO MUCH!”
“ I’M GONNA TURN THAT PAIN INTO PRAISE!” THEN HE GAVE ME A TOUCH!
“THIS IS HOLY SPIRIT, AND HE IS ALSO ME.”
AND SINCE THEN, MY NAME’S BEEN CHANGED TO ‘BEAUTIFUL PEACE’.
OH, LIFE ISN’T PERFECT, AND I AM STILL QUITE FLAWED
BUT, I AM NOW ALIVE, AND I’M LIVIN’ WITH GOD
AND MY FAMILY IS BLESSED
NOT DEMON-POSSESSED
MY WAYS ARE THE LORD’S
AND I’M FREE FOREVER MORE
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Your mercy beckons to my spirit, and causes me to wake
I’m instantly aware of You, and begin to give You praise
Clothed in Your armor from head to toe, I savor each word you say
Lord, I’m so thankful for this love we share, and for this brand new day
Lord, with Your strength I will get through this day
With armor, with faith, with mercy and grace
You’ve equipped me well to do all I must do
I have victory this day because I have You
The blood of Jesus over this house I pray
May His warring angels keep evil at bay
Lord, grace our dreams with Your presence this night
And let Your mercy awake us with new morning light
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MY MIDDLE BABY GIRL STOPPED SPEAKING @ 2
NO MORE TWINKLE LITTLE STAR
NO MORE BRIGHT EYES TO STARE AT YOU
NO MORE LAUGHTER. NO MORE JOY
NO MORE BEGGING FOR “DAT TOY, MOMMY! DAT TOY!!!”
JUST AN EERIE UNWELCOMED SILENCE
ODD BEHAVIOR, AND PIERCING SHRIEKS
REPETATIVE INCOHERENT PHRASES
AND MANY NIGHTS WITHOUT SLEEP
HOW I WISHED I COULD CLIMB INSIDE YOUR MIND
TO SEE HOW YOU SAW
TO HEAR HOW YOU HEARD
TO FEEL ALL YOU FELT
WHY YOU REACTED TO ONLY ‘THOSE’ WORDS
WHAT CAN EVER COMARE WITH WATCHING A CHILD
EXISTING WITHIN A SILENCED WORLD
BOTH UNIFORMED, YET WILD
THEN A REVELATION OF ANSWERED PRAYERS
TO BELIEVE, EXPECT, AND HOPE, AND RECEIVE
THE WONDERMENT OF EXPERIENCING GOD’S DIVINE HEALING
FROM SILENCE TO SPOKEN WORDS
FROM NO HUGS, TO INITIATED EMBRACES
TO HAVE THOSE BEAUTIFUL BRIGHT GREEN EYES
STARING PURPOSEFULLY AT MY FACE
NOW SHE SPEAKS, AND SHE SINGS, AND SHE WHINES, AND COMPLAINS
DRAWING IMAGES WITH SUCH DETAIL NEVER BEFORE SEEN
AND SHE WORSHIPS THE LORD JESUS WHOM SHE SAYS WAS ALWAYS THERE
CAN YOU SEE HER AT THE ALTER DANCING, AND PRAISING
AS IF SHE HASN’T A CARE?
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OH GIRL BELOVED, INHALE DEEPLY AND THEN RELEASE
GET OUT OF GOD’S WAY. STOP OBSTRUCTING YOUR OWN PEACE
OH GIRL BELOVED, IF OBSESSING IS WHAT YOU MUST DO
TAKE UP THE LORD’S CROSS. TIME TO TRY SOMETHING NEW
OH GIRL BELOVED, THIS DAY IS NOT AS THE SAME
THERE IS DELIVERANCE FOR YOU, AND INDEED, HOPE KNOWS YOUR NAME
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EXCUSE ME , JESUS. I'LL SAY IT NOW, FOR I'M CERTAIN ON THAT GLORIOUS DAY, WHEN
YOU COME BACK TO PICK ME UP,
NO WORDS WILL I BE ABLE TO CONVAY.
I KNOW MY MIND WILL LEAVE ME,....... FINE!
I WONT NEED IT ANYWAY!
HOW MY HEART, EVEN NOW, YEARNS FOR YOU.
AND I'M SORRY, BUT I WONT WAIT MY TURN TO TOUCH YOU.
TO HUG YOUR NECK, AND KISS YOUR TOE.
AND I'M CERTAIN THAT I WON'T LET GO.
I FEEL IT'S NECESSARY TO DECLARE TO ALL
THAT I WILL BE THE JESUS-FOOL!
I''LL TRY MY BEST TO GIVE YOU ALL SOME ROOM,
CUZ I KNOW THAT YOU LOVE HIM, TOO.
OH, WHAT AN UNIMAGINABLE MASS JUBILATION!
AN UNCENSORED, INCOMPREHENSIBLE, JOYOUS CELEBRATION!
HOW, OH LORD, WILL WE ALL HOLD YOU @ THE SAME TIME?!?
SURELY, YOU AND FATHER HAVE IT ALREADY PLANNED.
A MILLION ON YOUR HIP, AND A MILLION AT EACH HAND.
MAYBE 6MILLION CARESSING STRANDS OF YOUR HAIR,
AND 10 MILLION KISSING YOUR FEET.
SO, EXCUSE ME NOW, AND I LOVE YOU,MY PRECIOUS JESUS.
I'LL SAY IT NOW WHILE I AM ABLE TO SPEAK.
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ME, ME, ME
I, I, I
WHEN, WHEN, WHEN
WHY, WHY, WHY
IF, IF, IF
MAYBE, TOO
NO, IT'S NOT ABOUT ME, GOD
BUT, YOU, YOU, YOU
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When the sun went down, my head grew dim.
I took all that mind-junk and anger, & I gave it to Him.
I didn’t toss. I didn’t turn. Me & the pillow didn’t fight.
In truth, I slept well through a very peaceful night.
But when I awoke, something was very wrong.
Before bed I forgot to put my holy Armour on!
Now my peace, & spirit, & my mind are a wreck! Ok, Lord...Help me out...
Tell me how to give you back all this mess.
Holy Spirit said, “ Get down on your knees, & cast your eyes upon Him!
Hurry! Do it now! There isn’t a moment to waste.
Remember ‘twinkling of an eye’? Remember ‘morning’s renewed grace’?
So I did as I was told. Separating His words from the lies.
And as I felt the uplifting, I began to cry.
And I thanked my precious Jesus because He is always, always there.
The One who is, & was, & is to come. My Sovereign King, & Dearest Friend.
Thank you, Lord of Love.
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There was a time in my life when I lived out of God’s will
I was caught up in self-destruction, and consumed with my own guiilt
But the Lord reached out His hand, and pulled me out of my circumstance
And where there once was sorrow and shame
Now exists only joy and praise
Lord you’ve brought me too far, and shown me too much
For me to ever go back
How I love your love
You are the One that I was searching for
Guide me, mold me, use me
Lord, I’m yours
Everyday I seek you, and delight to know your ways
You’ve filled me with your loving-kindness
When I’m weak, You give me strenghth
Your Holy Spirit dwells within me
For your glory this life is a testimony
I’ll do all you command me to
All that’s within me will praise only you
And you’ve brought me too far, and shown me too much
I will never go back
Cuz I love your love
You are the One that I was searching for
Lord guide me, mold me, use me
Guide me, mold me, use me
Know that you’ll never loose me cuz
I’m yours
Jesus, I’m yours
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IN ALL GOD’S GRACE
HE FOUND ME WORTHY TO HAVE YOU AS A FRIEND
YOU MEAN SO VERY MUCH TO ME
AND OUR LAUGHTER IS WITHOUT END
TRULY, I’M RICHER FOR KNOWING YOU
YOU DRAW ME CLOSER TO THE LORD
PLEASE NEVER FORGET HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU
AND THAT YOU ARE ADORED
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WHAT A REVIVAL WE COULD HAVE ON EARTH
IF WE PRAYED THE WAY THEY’RE PRAYING RIGHT NOW IN HELL
IF WE ALL CRIED OUT TO THE LORD IN DESPERATION
AND NEVER STOPPED UNTIL HIS GLORY FELL
RIGHT THIS VERY SECOND YOU BETTER BELIEVE THAT DOWN BELOW
MILLIONS ARE CALLING ON JESUS’ NAME
IF ONLY WE COULD HEAR THE WAY THEY’RE FRAYING IN HELL
THE WAY WE’VE ALL BEEN PRAYING WOULD SURELY CHANGE
OH, WHAT A REVIVAL WE COULD HAVE ON EARTH
IF WE PRAYED THE WAY THEY’RE PRAYING RIGHT NOW IN HELL
IF WE ALL CRIED OUT TO THE LORD IN DESPERATION
AND NEVER STOPPED UNTIL HIS GLORY FELL
LET’S JOIN TOGETHER AND SEEK THE LORD
MAN O MAN, REVIVAL IS WHAT THIS COUNTRY NEEDS
GOD IS ALREADY READY
HE’S JUST WAITING ON US
REVIVAL ON EARTH BEGINS WITH YOU AND ME
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