Best Poems Written by Arianna Pajaro

Why

Why must we complicate life when it’s already so complicated?
Why must I do this to myself? 
I don’t know the answer to these questions yet and I hoped by writing all this down, 
it would help me get to the conclusion that everyone has been waiting for; Why? 
Instead, I’m now realizing that there’s an even bigger question. 
Why don’t I ever want to help myself? 
I keep sinking yet I don’t shake off my shackles that hold me. 
These shackles are heavily weighted with doubt and questions that force me to the bottom of the never-ending pit.
I’ve always had the key to release me but I’ve convinced myself that I do not have the mental capacity to apply it. 
If only I would use it.
If only I stopped making excuses and putting it off. 
If I did, I could then start swimming to the top. 
To the surface. 
The surface that has been shown to me many times before. 
The surface that I thought I wanted. 
The surface that I thought would end all my suffering.				
And maybe, just maybe, if I reach the top of the water, I may just find land.

Copyright © Arianna Pajaro | Year Posted 2020