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Richard Tarr Poem
My baby is going away. I lay trapped in these over whelming sad thoughts. Of the one I've been so sure wouldn't hang me out to dry. Let me drown in my own pain. Would never leave my side. My baby may being fading away.
You didn't get to hear my side. That's no fault of yours. I couldn't stop choking down my tears. I could only utter singular replies. My heart is hurting beautiful. I stand here a broken man your kicking while he's down. I need to sort my thoughts but none of them are living my days without you.
Trust me darling. I know I'm the biggest emotional cripple. I only know how to stuff my saddness so deep inside of me. I cant bring myself to talk about it. I'm sorry for my wrong doings but I love you the same way I did when I decided you will be my one and always.
Breaking in our bed. Longing for your love from 10 feet away. Kills me to know I'm not the warmth you want any longer. Why cant you see through my eyes. Your my angel your face has jaded. I can hear my heart cracking in every finger tap of the text screen. My baby is going away. I dont blame her for wanting the things I cant deliver on. The best part of me is the son you gave to me. I wish I could utter this perhaps be able to Express another emotion other then anger. Trapped in my mind the words refuse to resonate through my quivering lips. One day you will understand my rock bottom. Maybe our hearts will beat in sync again until that day. I'm willing to wait for the rest of what life I have left to feel your love Victoria. My heart needs your healing beautiful. Please baby never go away.
Richard Tarr
9/30/2019
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Goodbye old friend. I'll miss you the most. Don't blame my cold shoulder. My Heart needs to pull away to give you all you need. This stare down has me nervously calm. You asked me to do this deed. Dont forget I was willing to bargain. Wagers were never agreed upon. That's my personal issue . I'm here in front of you. It must seem like I'm on a different planet. Look in my eyes my reality is dark and lonely. I'm damaged goods. The sweetest of fruit that has expired. That's who I am. I'm well aware of my short comings. So all I can do as of now. Is say goodbye old friend. I loved you the most.
Richard Tarr
10/07/2019
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The brain is constantly rotating. My heart and soul is beaten down. My hands have turned as cold as stone. Caliust rough to touch. My feet carry my numb body from ditch to bed. My mouth wants nothing other then liquor to shut my head off at night. My eyes are constant sorrow hidden by a half smile. This is how I vent, so nobody would think I'm weak in the slightest sense. I pray my sons won't catch on how sad dad really is inside. I wonder if death would be peace, free me from an indifferent mind. I hold strong to be a hero in two little boys eyes. I turn my confessions of depression into awkward phrases. My mind keeps spinning the same old song. Anything I love god will take away. Been the only consistent in my life since the age of 14. Life has dealt me one hell of a hand to play with. I'm here fighting to feel normal inside. The story continues to write itself out. Keep reading on to the next page.
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They sold home away. The last thing I had of you is gone. Last piece is finally taken away. Wounds are going to take some time to heal. What it meant to me. What it was, was my safe place away from this wicked world. The osias in the woods. A souls final resting place. A legacy no longer exists. They sold my fathers home for pennies. It was priceless to me.
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