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FBI ARLINGTON HEIGHTS ILLINOIS CONFIDENTIAL HUMANS SOURCE CRISIS TEAM

CRISIS TEAM:HELLO WE ARE HERE TO HELP  

AGENT BROWN: HELLO I AWAKEN EVERY NIGHT BETWEEN  THREE OR FOUR AM I CANNOT BREATHE PANTING HEARING MY FETUS HEARTBEAT SO LOUDLY 

CRISIS TEAM: YOU ARE SAFE HERE DEAR

AGENT BROWN : I CAN'T LIVE LIKE THIS WHY WON'T IT STOP I AM STUCK THERE RIGHT NOW I'M WEARING WIRES ON MY UNBORN CHILD I AM WITH CHILD WE BEGAN OUR DAY MY CHILDREN AND I PREPARING TO GET IMMUNIZATIONS AT THE HEALTH DEPARTMENT ON 63RD AND ASHLAND THE CHILDREN WERE EXCITED IT WAS THE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL HOWEVER I HAD A VERY IMPORTANT JOB TODAY THE FBI WAS COMPLETING A LONG INVESTGATION SINCE 1984 OPERATION POLICE CORRUPTIONS DIRTY OFFICERS SELLING WEAPONS AND DRUGS RIOT GEAR TO SHOOT OUT WITH THE FBI WITH ME INSIDE I'M SORRY I NEED A BREAK 

CRISI TEAM: TAKE YOUR TIME NO WORRIES TRY AND BREATHE

AGENT BROWN: I CAN'T BREATHE AFTER THE SHOTS FINGER POKES MY IRON WAS LOW A FEW OF THE CHILDREN AS WELL WE STROLLED OVER TO THE RED APPLE RESTURANT TO WAIT FOR THE STATE DEPARTMENT TO SIGN OFF ON THE FUNDS CONTENITAL BANK FOR MY FAMILY TO TRAVEL ON THE METRA TRAIN TO GET TO GREATLAKES TRAIN STATION NOT FAR FROM THE KILLERS AND DEALERS RUNNING THIS GIANT DRUG OPERATION THE ENTIRE TOWN SELLING DRUGS FOR THE ARSON MURDERER OF 9 CIRO GARGANO THE REASON THE FBI RECRUITED ME TO WEAR WIRES PREGNANT BUYING WEAPONS AND DRUGS I WAS VERY GLAD THE KIDS TAGGED ALONG I WAS AFRAID THEY WOULD BE ABDUCTED FROM SCHOOL AND HELD FOR RANSON AS WE WAITED THE CHILDREN WERE SAYING MOM WE'RE HUNGRY WE ALL WERE BUT WE HAD TO WAIT 4 CHILDREN MY HUSBAND AND I FINALLY WE WALKED TO THE MONEY EXCHANGE NEXT DOOR THE FUNDS WERE IN TRAIN FARE I BOUGHT THE TICKETS AND SETTLED INTO THE GOLDEN NUGGET ON FULLERTON EVERYTHING WAS SO EXPENSIVE ON THE MENU I SAW 4 CHICKEN WINGS UNAWARE THEY ACTUALLY CUT ONE WING INTO FOUR PIECES WITH 4 CELERY STICKS THE CHILDREN DEVOURED THE WINGS ASKING ME TO EAT SOMETHING FOR THE BABY BECAUSE MY STOMACH WAS GROWLING I WAS AFRAID TODAY I KNEW THE DEALERS MIGHT GRAB MY BELLY AND FIND THE WIRES SO I STAYED UP ALL NIGHT SEWING POCKETS OUT OF NYLONS TO HIDE IT AWAY FROM MY BELLY ROCKING SWEATING PANTING 

CRISIS: RELAX AGENT BROWN IT'S OKAY TO CONTINUE

AGENT BROWN: AFTER THEY WERE DONE I GOT UP TO TAKE THE TRAY TO THE TRASH I WAS SO HUNGRY I ATE A FEW CHICKEN BONES TO FEED MY UNBORN CHILD THIS CALMED MY FETUS A BIT WHILE WE GOT ON THE TRAIN TRAVELING 22 CITIES AND TOWNS ARRIVING IN LAKE BLUFF TRAIN STATION TO MEET WITH SPECIAL AGENT LEROY HEIMBACH AND SPECIAL AGENT PAULA BRAND WE WENT INSIDE EVERYONE HAD TO PEE MY YOUNGEST WAS HIS ZIPPER STUCK THE GIRLS WERE BICKERING I WAS NAUSEA SPECIAL AGENT PAULA BRAND SAID HURRY NOW I RUSHED THE KIDS ALONG AS SHE INSTALLED THE WIRES ON MY BELLY SHE SEEMED STRESSED IMPATIENT I THOUGHT I ASKED HER DID SHE HAVE KIDS SHE SAID NO HE DOES A LOT LIKE YOU REFERRING TO LEROY HEIMBACH I ASKED HER DID SHE THINK THE WIRES WOULD HARM THE FETUS SHE SAID NO I DON'T THINK SO THAT'S WHEN I TOOK HER HAND OVER TO THE SIDE OF MY BELLY I FELT SOMETHING UNSETTLING CROSS MY WOMB I FELT AS IF I HAD SEPERATED MYSELF FROM MY OWN FETUS COMPASSION WAS FADING LIKE AN ABORTION WHO WAS I WHY I FELT NUMB LIKE A SUICIDE BOMBER BEING WIRED UP TO GO INSIDE THIS BUILDING OF KILLERS I COULDN'T SHOW FEAR NO NO NO NO SHOW NO FEAR BECAUSE FEAR WILL GET US ALL KILLED PANTING INHALING EXHALING

CRISIS TEAM: YOU'RE DOING GREAT RELAX AGENT BROWN IT'S OKAY TO RELEASE ALL THIS PENT UP ENERGY FROM THESE TRAUMATIC EVENTS     

AGENT BROWN: MY CHILDREN ENJOYED RIDING WITH SPECIAL AGENT LEROY HEIMBACH HE WOULD ACTUALLY TAKE THEM TO THE BEACH SINGING MY GIRL OR THE BEATLES COME TOGETHER AS WE APPROACH THE BUILDING SPECIAL AGENT ASKED ME TO THINK OF A SPECIAL CODE WORD OR PHRASE SO THEY KNOW WHEN I TURNED ON THE RECIEVER I RESPONDED WITH ON LIKE CHICKEN BONE I NEVER KNEW THAT BONES WERE THAT FILLING THIS WAS MY DEATH BEING PLANNED THIS OPERATION RAN BY JUNK SICK OFFICERS WORKING SECURITY FOR GANG LEADERS FROM CHICAGO POSTED UP WITH RIOT GEAR ONE OFFICER OPENED THE DOOR LED US INSIDE MY HUSBAND HE WOULD ALWAYS TEST THE DRUGS OUT BEFORE WE PAID THEM TO MAKE SURE IT WAS REAL DOPE ON THIS DAY HE PASSED OUT NEAR A BUCKET OF LYE THEY USED TO DISSOLVE DRUGS AND HUMAN FLESH AND BONES I TURNED GREEN THE DEALER WAS ON WALKIE TALKIE WITH A COP INSIDE THE POLICE DEPARTMENT NEXT DOOR WARNING HIM THAT FBI INFORMANTS WERE IN THE BUILDING MEANING ME THE DEALER TAKES HIS 44 MAGNUM HOLDS IT TO MY CHEEK AND FORCES ME TO LOOK OUT THE WINDOW AT THE LIGHT WAS SPECIAL AGENT PAULA BRAND AND THE IRS TAILING BEHIND MY EYES WERE WIDE HE SAID DO YOU KNOW HER DO YOU BECAUSE I'M NOT GOING BACK TO PRISON IS SHE POLICE HE FORCED ME TO LOOK THROUGH AN ASSAULT RIFLE THERE WAS PAULA A RED DOT ON HER PONYTAIL IT WAS SO MANY PEOPLE A HIGHSCHOOL A MIDDLE SCHOOL AN ELEMENTARY SCHOOL DAYCARE LIBRARY AND THE POLICE DEPARTMENT I TREMBLED AND SAID YES I KNOW HER SHE'S MY DAUGHTERS SCHOOL TEACHER I HAD A CONFERENCE MY GOD IF HE SHOOTS PAULA WHERE ARE MY KIDS TOTAL CHAOS WE PURCHASED A LARGE AMOUNT OF DRUGS THAT DAY 

CRISIS TEAM: YOU'RE SAFE NOW DEAR

AGENT BROWN : I SWALLOWED FEAR HE THEN TELLS ME I CAN'T LEAVE OUT UNLESS I TRY THE DRUGS HE HAD TO MAKE SURE I WASN'T WITH THE FBI HE SAYS NOBODY LEAVE OUT UNTIL THEY TRY THE PRODUCT HE WAS A JUNK SICK ARMED COP IN THAT MOMENT MY HUSBAND STUMBLED OUT THE BATHROOM AND SAID SHE CAN'T SHE IS PREGNANT HE THEN RUBBED MY BELLY WHAT A BLESSING I SEWN POCKETS INTO MY PANTS HIS EYES WERE FIERY I FEARED FOR MY LIFE AND THE LIVES OF MY CHILDREN THE DEALER GOT ANGRY HE SAID HE DIDN'T CARE HE SOLD LOT'S OF DRUGS TO PREGNANT WOMEN AND I HAD TO TRY IT OUT OR DIE PLACING THE 44 IN MY MOUTH CUTTING MY LIP I REALIZED HE WAS GOING TO KILL ME I TOLD MYSELF THIS IS JUST UNDERCOVER A JOB GO ALONG WITH THIS KILLER GET OUT ALIVE SO I SIMULATED MAKING HIM BELIEVE I WAS COOL MAKING HIM TRUST ME SO THAT WE COULD LEAVE HE BECAME CALMER THIS WAS THE ONLY WAY OUT SAFE

CRISIS TEAM: YOU DID GOOD AGENT BROWN 

AGENT BROWN: ON LIKE CHICKEN BONE

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